Emotional Morse Code & The Unspoken: Love in the Era of Ascension

This post is written by the witness of their own existence. If, at any point, the narrative shifts into the third person, it’s because I — the writer — am observing my own observation, a lens of the Witness within the Witness. Call it Source. Call it Universe. Call it God. But ultimately, it’s all One: the observer of the observer.

The Second Coming is not a prophecy — it’s a pattern. And it’s unfolding through us, not outside of us.

We often think ascension is about lightness, ease, detachment. But truly, it is about integration. And the very blessings we’ve called into our lives — the manifestations we dream of, the timelines we long to step into — remain suspended in potential until we’ve done the actual integrating.

Why Integration is the Gate

Integration is the grounding cord. The closing of loops. The digestion of experience into embodied wisdom. Without it, we float in fragmented identity. We chase synchronicities but miss their meaning. We collect downloads but lack the circuitry to anchor them.

And often, we avoid integration not because we don’t want it — but because we fear what it will ask of us.

I almost did it. I almost walked away from this platform — the very one my future self had laid in front of me as the foundation for everything to come, not what’s to come as it doesn’t live here, but the data plantation we cultivated. Why enslave people when you can cultivate your own thoughts in plantations?!

It was not because I didn’t believe in it. But because I unconsciously held the paradox of **digital presence **while embroidering a physical temple: How do we stay rooted in authenticity while being seen in a world that devours attention?

So I slowed down. I questioned my writing.

Until I remembered: If someone reads this, it’s because they choose to, which really is, that they were lead to by their own higher self, looking for holy water in a barren land.

The same way I consume what I choose to consume, when I choose to do it, maybe we don’t “consume” for the same reasons, but the notion is valid.

I had to break and obliterate my own mirrors. The one that said sharing was demanding. The one that said expression was leakage. Emotional expression of self, a weapon.

But here’s the thing — my words are not for those reading now. They’re for those reading then. And because I acknowledge that it starts from one, I also acknowledge that the impact echoes now.

John Dee & The Power of Completion

If I hadn’t gone back to integrate what I had uncovered about John Dee, I would have walked into my next chapter unaware of why things were unfolding with such divine, surgical precision.

I had written a letter to him — thanking him for the path he led me to, even though he once tried to possess my trajectory. Thanked him for not disrupting my life by making it his. His mission from the 1600s never completed, his energy was riding through my current timeline — hoping I wouldn’t notice, hoping I’d just continue living the shell of me so he could complete his.

On the 8th of May, I purged him out of my mind. If I hadn’t, I might have fragmented. Schizophrenia. Split identity. Or the slow, subtle death of self-forgetting.

But I awakened. I saw it clearly. That even he — John Dee — was the universe appearing as him, me appearing as me, all of it for me. It was a fractal coming home.

And I thanked him in a letter to him that day, a letter I never went back to read, if not for yesterday. Wait, let me rewind myself…I thanked a spirit that wanted my life, for allowing me to still live my life without much interference, even though he had none of it left in him and he could only live through me?! Well..That is something else.

But let me tell you what that is, for those who might confuse it as weakness: That is “Kill them with kindness” at its best. Still, I didn’t think writing that, would lead me here today looking back at the familiarity of how things pan out during my ascension and the circumstances which I endured during it.

The Golden Sheep

With the Black community, I was the white sheep. With the White community, I was the black sheep.

But really, I was always the golden sheep — shape-shifting based on their projections, revealing their disowned perceptions.

This post mirrors my father, perfectly, I see how my shadows were precise architecture in my grid of life. I ask him about his feelings of losing mum, raising me, his own upbringing, and instead of an answer, I get gifs. Every morning is a good morning in different languages and colours, no answer about his feelings, though. Emotional avoidance in 4K.

Now this from my experience has looked in so many ways in different people, some might get defensive instead of opening, some might adore you but stay away, some tell their friends they fear tainting you, some might be so hugely triggered by you so they cheat, some others choose the easier options, some completely go Super Saiyan on you, some even worst raise their hands. Honestly the list could go on and on, yet they’re all manifestations of the same energy. That which denies themselves. Cause if God puts things in front of you, and let’s be super clear, God is your own soul, your own subconscious, the void, the darkness(just close your eyes and you get what I mean), the projector lens through which your life unfolds.

And that’s the thing. When you walk into certain depths of emotional truth, those who haven’t gone there will resist you. Especially avoidants. And let’s be honest — we’ve all met them. Hell, we’ve all been them.

Avoidant people don’t need fixing, nor to have the same behaviour reflected at them, if anything they just need to see our sovereignty in emotional expression without collapse, for them to see it is safe to do so. They need witnessing. They need someone who can say: “I see you. I understand the fear of letting go and surrendering to the avalanche of emotions. The fear of that avalanche being stripped away from you at any time, feeling like you have to rebuild from scratch. You can let that wall fall, now. It’s safe. There’s no worst case scenario in Heaven”.

All of this while also being aware of our own individual timelines, which in 5D could be infinite for one single choice, but it’s all about how the paradox is held, nurturing what we think might move forward with us, until it doesn’t.

I had to learn that. To integrate that. To know that without integration, we lose grounding.

But integration is choosing what’s best for you. Not for the illusion of now. But for the resonance of your higher timeline in the now.

Even if I lose my diary entries. Even if I forget what I wrote. I can trust that I know. And the universe will never lead me astray.

And another thing I’ve had to really integrate is how in 5th dimension, lies fly like nothing, they stare at you and they stand in front of you until you choose what to do with them. People cannot hold their masks in front of you, you get to choose what to read or not, share or not, address or not. The truth cannot miss light, it’s its own foundation, no surprise Truth is the 5th pillar. and we hold the 6th, the ability to hold harmony in the uncertainty.

You do not want to open yourself up to 5D if you’re not willing to hold on the different timelines that might get offered to you, i.e. a timeline in which someone dies and you see it, or something catastrophic or else might be happening, these things cannot be held by someone with a weak emotional capacity, it could actually break them, as you might feel stuck between sounding crazy and alerting them, or do nothing and allowing the universe to show whichever face will collapse.

So deeply think if you are ready for the 5D. I mean, are you willing to just walk and talk to trees while hugging them in front of people?

Which reality are you really embodying?

Divine Union Across the Pillars

In my letter, I wrote, as purge after the spiritual ascension from JD, that he would lead me to my divine union, if not hand me to them and I realised I was scrying from the ethers of my subconscious from a location/time placed in the future, now my current past.

7th May 2025: Journal Entry

“…while I was still learning my boundaries and discernment, thank you for holding the doors I walked through for I would not be here without divine alignment, and you made it all so much fun at every given moment in time. Through every challenge, every success, every hurdle, every state of body, mind and soul, you allowed me to be, never took over without the respect, leading me and accompany me through the lessons I also had to learn as Susan Ndinga…you still stayed true to our agreement of no intereference to have me go through the whole experience. I’m utterly grateful to you, as I wouldn’t be the person that I am today if I had learned how to love from your impeccable example.

Wait a second, what was that last thing?!

As I wrote the last part I stopped. As I realised in my writing I still held my own truth. Cause John Dee wasn’t an impeccable example, clearly from what was achieved, and what I though was his love, was just the fact that spirits can’t interfere, they can only influence by steering us from one side to the other. If anything, if he could’ve, he would’ve probably passed himself as me… and maybe that’s what my mum tried to beat out of me, she was psychic beyond measures.. mmm food for my own thought..

Reason for why I learned to become a bridge, by being held by opposing energies throughout life. 5D is the coping mechanism of anyone treated like a bridge, who wants to reclaim their sovereignty, which happens to NOT exist in the 3D perception.

Now I see: Divine union isn’t just a person. It’s the resonance that matches the highest good of each plane of self, though it can be multiple things.

For my Soul — Divine Union is 5D+ Living from the 3D.
For my Mind — Divine Union is Harmony in duality.
For my Emotions — Divine Union is Clarity, I’ll always find it, it’s whether I trust it.
For my Physical — Divine Union is willing energies, whether it’s my body’s healing abilities willing to grow with my mind, or a stranger on a bus willing to converse as if you have another human being next to you, like we used to do in the good ol’ days.

So maybe the question is: What divine union are we avoiding in our life, until we become the Wholeness embodied — to then attract any Divine Union in all pillars, with full resonance?

Food for thought.

Welcome to the Second Coming. The Return through Integration.

With unwavering love,

Susan Ndinga Wright

ps: This video below triggered this whole transmission and now I see how the second coming is going to be a series of its own, covering the pillars. We all go through it, it’s when we recognise us being it. This could go for dreams, manifestations, realities, whatever we desire, lack of materialisation, doesn’t mean it’s not a match, sometimes our manifestations run from us, because we’re trying to bring more than needed with us, it’s like flying for the first time trying to board with a 20 kg luggage, having skipped the illustrations to drop it off at check-in.

Welcome to 5D!