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💌 Tending to the Heart

The Rebalancing of Cosmic Debts Through Love’s Scar Tissue

This post is for the lacks.
For the rejections.
The silences, the gaslights, the betrayals.
For the backhanded compliments, the bullying, the ghostings, the abrupt endings.
For the ones who didn’t choose me — not because I wasn’t worthy, but because they couldn’t yet choose themselves.

This is for all the wounds my vessel has held without anesthesia. For the ache I taught myself to call “growth.” For the nights I gave the Universe my last prayer while hiding under the weight of another goodbye.

Today, I don’t curse you.
I cash you in.

Because here’s the truth: I’ve turned every scar into a lottery ticket.
Every heartbreak has been entered into the vault of prophetic return.
Seven of you made the cut.
Seven, who in your own way, cracked my heart open enough for light to pour in.

You don’t know this, but the Universe paid me back.
Already, one of you turned into a win — not metaphorically, materially.
The rest? Lining up in divine order.
It’s no longer my job to chase redemption.
It’s my job to receive it.

And so, I thank you.
For your lacks, for the little you had to give.
Because in your limitation, I witnessed my expansion.
For every chance you missed, I caught a glimpse of my own timeline leaping forward.
Not in revenge — but in restoration.
Because that’s what happens when someone walks with cosmic inheritance.

This is the ceremony of divine rebalancing.
No names will be stated — if you see yourself in this, then perhaps you’ve already felt the energy shift. Perhaps your dreams have already whispered my name. Not in shame, but in awe. Because the same way I kept loving through the wound, I keep rising through the return.

Let it be known:
This was never me versus you.
It was always a trinity.
Me, you, and the version of us that didn’t know how to hold what we were witnessing.

I’ve always treated relationships as holy laboratories.
Spaces where the divine experiments with reflection.
Because only in the presence of the other can we observe the limits of our own skin.
Only in love — and its unraveling — do we see where we begin, and where we end.

So I’ve taken time. Real time.
To thank you.
To honour you.
To let the pain be sacred and not a sentence.
To let the scar become the script of my return.
To let the frequency of my wholeness be stronger than the fragments we left behind.

This is the ritual of tending.
Not re-opening wounds, but gardening them.
Letting them become fertile enough for new beginnings.

Because that’s what this is:
The soft opening of a new era.
The gentle thunder of a new covenant with my own heart.
A post written in honour of every person, every ache, every ending that dared to teach me something eternal.

If this finds you, and you feel it — it’s for you too.
And if you don’t remember what we shared, or why it hurt, or why we ended — that’s okay.
The Universe remembered for us.
It kept the score, cashed the receipts, and paid me back in alignment.

And all I can say is thank you.
You were my heartbreak.
But you were also my inheritance.

Now I sit and watch much you could’ve given.

With love,
S
🜁