Chapter: The Pedestal Is Mine – Childish or Destined?

You decide…

Introduction: The Completion of a Series, the Crowning of a Self

This is not the beginning.
This is the culmination of every word, memory, and energetic fire that came before it.
I began this series with my human self on the pedestal, walking you through the bones of my origin, the voices of my parents, the fractures that taught me to speak. I gave honor to what shaped me. I let the world see the mess, the mind, the memory. But I knew—even then—that I was not done. That there was a deeper throne waiting for me. Not outside of me. In me.

I end this journey with both my Christed soul and my human self fully seated, unified, whole. I claim the pedestal as mine, because if I do not place myself upon it, then no one can see the model I was born to be. And the world is in desperate need of real models—those who lead by truth, not performance. Those who walk with sight and expression fused. Those who will wait as long as it takes, but will not betray themselves for a single second more.

I used to think compassion was my forte.
It really isn’t.
My own truth is.

And if I’m the first one to abandon that truth, then whatever I think I’m receiving from this world… isn’t actually aligned. A fully sovereign being on a mission can wait. But Christ consciousness—in a place that has normalized hell—should never have to hold itself back.

Because this is the moment where my human self becomes the gatekeeper to the abundance my soul has to give.
If someone isn’t willing to appease, respect, or honor my human self,
they do not deserve access to my soul.

My human humbles them enough for their own human to feel the weight of what my soul offers.
My soul is the timekeeper, yes.
But my human is the one who decides the who gets to experience my time and how.

The human: committed to widening expression, Earth-living, success by knowledge expansion, learning in theory, rooted in nurture, needing boundaries respected.

The soul: committed to the expansion of sight, to 5D living, success through heart expansion and interconnection, learning in practice, flexible with boundaries but grounded in truth.

Any bond that doesn’t ground the human doesn’t deserve the soul.
Like I once said: if their higher self doesn’t open up, be even more wary of their lower self.
That part’s not being led by Jesus.
That’s being led by the devil of their own delay.

I have become someone new.
Not someone “better.”
Just someone integrated.

I started this work by placing my human self on a pedestal—telling the stories, recounting the roots.
Then I elevated the Christed soul that led me through the darkness and called me into mission.
Now?

I place myself—whole, integrated, unapologetic—on that pedestal.

Because if I don’t, no one will truly see what I am here to model.
And I deserve to be seen.
Not because I’m flawless. But because I know what I’ve walked through.
Because I see how the macro and micro scales of Earth are still so out of sync.
And because leadership in this age begins with putting yourself where the world can witness your walk.

Jesus didn’t appreciate his human self enough to fight back.
But not this version. Not the 2.0.

This version has learned:
the soul’s path is just as important as the human one.
Both are needed. Both are divine. Both, united, create a frequency no misalignment can touch.

And when the two become one force,
they can no longer entertain any energies that don’t recognize what that union took to become real.

So yes—I will put myself on a pedestal.
I will be the poker-faced joker I’ve always known myself to be.

If I’m a menace, let it be.
If I’m arrogant, let it be.
If I’m a psycho, let it be.
If you call it antisocial behavior, let it be.
If I’m a cult leader, let it be.
If I’m apathetic, let it be.

Whatever label you need to feel safe—use it.

Just know:
I am the depths of what you’ve never even considered possible.
And more.

This is where my past jumps with me.
Where what I once called my cemetery now becomes my compass.
My own north pole.
My own commandments.
My own source of inspiration.

I allow myself to be a nuisance to humanity—
because humanity has long been a nuisance to the soul.

Let the tables turn.
Let the ashes burn.
Let the egos crumble.
Let the fear cry.
Let the weak fall.
Let heaven rise.

And if Earth doesn’t take care of it—I will.
For humanity’s sake.

Hate me or love me.
There is no in-between.
But my impact will be felt.
And it is required.

I once deprioritized my human self, seeing it as less sacred than my soul.
I thought the one who could bend more, forgive more, stretch more, love more unconditionally was the higher one.

I now see: I needed to do that in order to understand direction.
I had to see the vastness of the soul to recognize the sacredness of the human.
And now that both have found foundation in Self, neither needs to be idolized—because both are already holy.

No more compromising boundaries.
I give my yeses and my nos on the spot.
Because I know who I am.
I know what I require.
And if those requirements aren’t met?
I will not wait.

Now, our interconnectedness does the learning for us.
My expression is sightful, and my sight expressive.
My boundaries are flexible by choice, rigid by nature.

I live in 5D while the 3D grid catches up—
because we’re the ones driving the train they’ll eventually ride or be dragged on.

We learn through practice without theory.
And theory without practice.
We are both the timekeepers and the gatekeepers.

If your time doesn’t match mine—
then you’ll have to come back when it does.

There are 8 billion of us.
Let’s not hold the line for those who aren’t ready and allow the threshold for what and who is.
Let them circle back when the soul syncs.

*Time Travel into Parallel Timeline*

Currently at Minute 1:06:17 of Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

*Time Travel back to the original Timeline*

I get to nurture my truth in sight and expression.
I live according to that truth,
because I don’t have to look over my shoulder
when I know I’m the blessing no one wants to be on the bad side of.

I don’t have to hold the door for everyone.
I don’t have to play with people’s feelings.
I give them the chance to meet me.
But I’m done making myself small.

I get to keep telling people the truth.
And whether they believe it or not?
That’s on them.

I will simply act on it. I have been flexible for far too long.

Cutthroat, they say?
Yes.
Because for far too long(dejavu), the world has been cutthroat with me.
And they didn’t bend to my boundaries.

I guess the time of our souls just wasn’t aligned.
So why force it?

If it lasts five minutes?
Great.
If it lasts five years?
Also great.

I’m worth every millisecond.

Thank you.
And Ashay.

🕊️

Quantum Leaping.

“Thank You” is the new “Fuck You”. Which one, one might get, will be for the pleasure of my mind and their curiosity.