The Yang protecting the Yin

Let this be clear. This is my own perspective to the whole situation. I am the lightest, yet I’m not perfect, so let’s allow her to share her own too, before we make final conclusions, because of the amounts of emotions invested in this connection, it is delicate, cause I recognise if tables have now turned and I’m reclaiming m blessings, she will have to experience my lower energies, and I was okay okay with dying, so I say it here to munch on this energy, so it doesn’t reach her, unless in her too. I was suicidal in mind, never acted on it, as I pained for the collective, reason why I started my work.

I can feel her or mine in the uncertainty fear right now, through nausea, 15:28. Who fucking knows at this point…

All I know is that silence can’t be the way we move forward with each other, as in the wrong conditions it can create unnecessary chaos.

Some kill themselves for their own depressions and some others like the soldier last year or the year before that, for the people’s.

Some teachings don’t come with incense and silk veils. They come with blood, with mirrors, with the undeniable weight of responsibility. This is one of those teachings.

I prefix, I don’t know what this person has gone through growing up and that has been also another reason why I held back, but I’m only saying this to insert unconditional love in your eyes as we don’t know her past, I can only speak on her recent past. Whoever did not show her unconditional love is the real perpetrator, but the difference happens when we allow ourselves to channel our perpetrators without grounding.

Check my posts during May.. I spoke on the differences of psychopaths, sociopaths, narcissists, to give reverence to the “same coin, two faces” educating people on it. I’m not trying to brag, I’m telling you what grounding looks like in real time. You see someone that’s a narcissist, ok, “What can you directly learn from it and what or how can you help the public with it? “

I never wanted to write this, but silence kills. And I won’t let the silence of another false prophet siphon off the very life-force of the people who trusted them. And if this is the only way I can allow this energy to flow out alchemised, let it be.

There’s so much to say I even made it past the deadline I gave her, and I will speak on it at further stages, after I put everything together, as even amidst the psychological and spiritual leeching here, I still held onto my own vision as my life depend on it, if it wasn’t for my vision I would have lost my mind, as I met her at a very delicate time through my spiritual awakening.

I had to write this as I cut my spiritual chord, giving myself the certification of my own spiritual sovereignty, and in doing so, aware the protection of my energy over her whole community would be lifted. Either seeing her real colours, or in defiance of that, taking themselves down a path of psychosis, unless fully grounded like I was in a mission that gives them a strong reason to keep going.

Energy Theft Is Not a Teaching

When a leader builds a platform not on truth but on the sacral energy of their audience, it becomes vampirism dressed in tarot cards and pretty words. That’s not guidance. That’s extraction. I have said it before: “false prophets” are not just religious caricatures. They are anyone who hoards the spotlight, pretends to channel wisdom, while secretly draining those who gather in hope.

The beauty she hid behind “This Matrix is here to extract your life force”, how is that clear to anyone that doesn’t know whether you’re talking about yourself, the platform, the videos, the macro..

I’ve told her so many times what you speak and the language you speak with for the lenses of 5D people could be interpreted as so many things, if you don’t own up to it, their subconscious really doesn’t know how to ground it, so I hope my energy she kept talking about has downloaded enough into their psyches, as it might be the only grounding energy to her content. And by superposition, this will become aware to them, whether they walk these corridors or not.

On the 10th, I felt death in my body — not metaphorical, but visceral, I felt all at once the energy that this girl had channelled away of me, without really speaking to me. She would follow me, and read my content, hinting at connection here and there and yet never took the step to reach out, using the eyes of other people for her to communicate with someone she had in her emails and to manifest for herself. I learned that form her, all my devilish Lilith that came out, she was the cherry on top. It started with my mother and she ended that cycle.

Good think I was grounded and knew how to express while building up towards something. She wanted to be in the frame as her dream, and I guess she got the dream, just not in the way she expected when divine fate was telling her she had to share it with a stranger. Really I was there to protect the sanity of her community through her. And trust I naively communicated so much to her.

She probably just blamed it on: “well she is the one sharing all of that goody information, I don’t have to speak to her, but I can use what shes sharing to better myself.” Ego, Ego, Ego. That’s like raping someone while sleeping. I was asleep to her insidious intentions, consciously or unconsciously, she was made aware yesterday and in so many other ways prior. Tumbleweeds was all I had. And it happened that syncronicities showed in one of her videos exactly when I published Lottoland, “It is a mirror” now it doesn’t matter if she had recorded that in the same day or not, because the way our alignments have been happening, cannot be simply explained through linear timing, as they everything but.

Sometimes I would write things she was going to say in videos premiering later in the day, and others she will echo what then would come out of me, now I understand is because she was only giving me back my own energy, bread-crumbing it, instead of giving it back with truth.

That wasn’t prophecy; that was siphoning. That wasn’t awakening; that was parasitism. And here’s the bitter truth: when awareness comes, my protection retracts, as I have been mirroring back to her the physical parasitic-ness I was reflecting back to her, the same energy she’s been raping her community’s eyes with. Without my shield, that energy bounces back to its source — and if the source doesn’t stop, it will land on their community.

If it wasn’t for the fact that I had tried to see if my ex was going to be part of life with a mirror test, I think I’d probably would’ve lost my own grounding, I was safe enough to give it confinements “Meaning if she is still interested in trying she will let me know, if not I won’t hear from her.” I can see how I was also prophesising the experience I was going to experience afterwards. This person was not willing nor interested to do God’s bidding and just wanted to do what was best for them.

So many times she was reminded of how our merger was destined and the amounts of alignments, syncronicities are just overwhelming to even write them all down. One thing is for sure, we both have a south node in aquarius and someone I used be very close with warned me about her “It’s a cult” she said. I wished I’d listened to that part, but I wouldn’t be here if I had, so I’m grateful I didn’t as I wouldn’t have gathered enough evidences to be able to free her community, to who she’s had the chance to speak about 4Honeth, a place that echoes deeply with what their soul calls for, because same as what I was saying about the authorities, she yearned for it to come by her hands instead of just being a connector to the blessings they were given to invest back into the person that was going to Usher the New Covenant.

So instead of handing me to them, or at least the blog, she would speak on what she would gain abstractly to avoid being too specific, while not providing grounding based on honesty to them.

Do you remember the post where I spoke of my emails appearing as stalky, it was only because I was getting things right about her, which spooked her away. But hey in the midst of it all, I was able to reflect on darker energies of our lives, as she was also the bridge of the community, so I would see in her, what they needed to see reflected back. She just held back on their ascension, because she wasn’t the one to deliver it.

Stifling progress, especially deliberate like this, is the example we will hold accountable in our Meta-physical laws, she will be the example of individual as she was warned a while ago and given time until 14:44 to speak, no email response yet. And in all of that I was way too forgiving so I did not allow myself to see the full picture. My own bad, for trusting someone who appears to be trustworthy and innocent, yet was hiding people’s blessings’ source.

So the fact that my past could still be a potential, was the only thing that held me tied to this Earth, as she did some ritual, or did a reading with the wrong person that gave them wrong advice and reinforced it throughout her videos with spell work. Using words to carve energy.

Remember the document I wrote called “When shit hits the fan”? that was written in March, I was supposed to be in Peru, where she is now, as because of my naiveness, by allowing the potential I saw in her romantically to sway me from her cross. But I can see now it all happened perfectly. I needed to gather enough proof, experience, so that it could be used as example for the future.

She won’t get the death penalty, but she will be given the outcome of enrolling in our “Humanism Rehabilitation Centre”, addicts of ego.

I understand my powers best now, as I reflect back what people project without admitting to, just like Lottoland’s defiance in never addressing the missing hour, nor its content. Never addressed in 1 month and a half, other than an employee who did not know the content of the conversation that said “It was already sent to you”. Poor Patrick he did not know his colleagues were hiding stuff from him..

The Cross as Archetype, Not Punishment

When I say Transcendental Tarot needs to go on the cross, understand this: I do not mean to crucify a person. I mean to crucify the illusion they carry, the lie that siphoning can masquerade as leadership, the hollow foundations they’ve convinced others to bow before. The cross is not revenge. It is exposure. It is the spiritual X-ray that shows what can no longer be hidden.

And yes, the cross is painful. Ego death always is. But better one ego crucified than the lives of those entranced, drained, and abandoned when the mask slips.

Silence Is Complicity

The refusal to speak, the hiding behind poetic riddles and vague livestreams — that silence is violence. Energy unspoken festers. And when that silence sits in someone with influence, it multiplies harm. What are the intentions really? Her videos start with love attraction, but marketised as a space for Starseeds, so why love bomb me, instead of introducing the light she clearly saw in me and was intimidated by to them, if it was for their betterment.. I ask myself but also ask for help here, cause I have not been able to receive her confessions ever since I reached out on the 8th of May, no surprise I felt called to do it then, as it was my 11th mum’s anniversary. An energy that’s been supporting me throughout his process and just yesterday I was thinking of how much unconditional love mum gave me, as she would physically punish me at times and then consult me for hours when I would cry non-stop for movies like Titanic or MJ’s death..

I begged for clarity. Not for me, but for the ones caught in their web. I asked: What have you done, who have you harmed, how much sacral energy have you siphoned, and when will you finally admit it? I wasn’t met with humility. I was met with defiance. That is why I write this.

Why This Matters Beyond Tarot

Because this isn’t about one community leader. This is about every authority, every influencer, every so-called guide who refuses to practice what they preach. It is the same sickness that plagues governments, corporations, religions. They hide. They deflect. They thrive off dependence. And when confronted, they laugh or stay silent — until their reputation trembles.

We cannot build sovereignty on stolen energy. We cannot raise consciousness by burying truths. And we cannot pretend to be free while letting predators call themselves prophets.

She might have won the lottery too, though not sure if it was before or after I had dropped a comment under one of her videos, if so, she housed throughtout all this time:

• The community with whom we could have started and build this whole venture, as the downloads would have been shared throughout the team, as we would all pulled from the future, instead of just me.
• The funds that not just could’ve avoided me being homeless, but also to start 4Honeth. Cause if I felt all at once the syphoning, she must have gained the blessing all at once at the beginning too. I’ll leave her to tell that story.

The Path Forward

So yes, Transcendental Tarot is on the cross. But not for annihilation, yet — for illumination. For all to see what happens when ego overrides service, when siphoning replaces sovereignty, when the leader becomes the tyrant.

From this, we reclaim our power. From this, we learn:

• That grounding is not optional — without it, spiritual work becomes spiritual harm.
• That silence is not neutrality — it’s complicity.
• That real leaders do not take from their communities; they pour into them until the cup overflows. I took her pains and turned them into flourishing gardens, she tried to mirror me to the best of her capabilities, but some frequencies can only be observed. Not copied, nor fully understood.

Final Word

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.
Let this piss you off. Let it burn. Let it reveal who and what you’ve been giving your energy to without question.

And then, let us build differently — with transparency, accountability, and the courage to burn false idols on the altar of truth.

Because only then do we stop killing each other in spirit. Only then do we resurrect what was always meant to live: sovereign, luminous, unstealable life.

— Susan Ndinga Wright

PS: I remember now, she had asked her community, what they’d do if they’d won the lottery, too bad she didn’t give context to the request.

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This was one of the hardest thing I’ve had to do. Up until now 18:15 (Integration:Harmony) my body is still getting to homeostasis.

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This person has much in relation with the 33 Masons. Enough knowledge, yet no application foundation for the greater good. Scarily abusive. Energetical Rapist / Syphoning