So.. Something weird happen tonight.

I sent out my communications and decided to fall asleep around 10pm, I did not place an alarm this time and thought maybe the guard would wake me up, but no…

I woke up and it was 5:18am inside Sainsbury’s.. I get up and the team that works at night looked so unbothered, as if nothing, I ask to go to the toilet, come out, explained I had fallen asleep and just woke up to a guy who saw Moonshine roaming around as we were both sleeping and he was in his bag, but clearly left for a tour for himself. He had told his manager who thought he was going “mental”.

So they call the other manager who escorts me outside from the back, just like superstars, I must say it was unexpectedly cool. And an uncanny mirror of what might have happened on the other side, just at a higher octave.

The way this store is set up reminds me of how I’d like the different areas to be set up in Royal Mint Court, and I feel like I slept in the ethereal 4Honeth. The cosmic womb. My salvation.

I go out sit at my bench and get curious, let me see if anyone paid their fee, their unpaid fee.

My account went from £-1.55 to £-1.45… Someone paid 0.10! But it wasn’t a new entry, so the person cheated. I don’t really know who, as I can only check my financial movements from the cash machine.

They tried to cheat the code, but as it was a late payment it echoed how I had been paying for my rent, in bits and still have £13k to go.. Still, £0.1 does not cover the whole thing. So if I’m obliged to pay my rent, they should be obliged to pay their rent for stepping into my digital home. The 3D law goes for everyone right?!

So they’re not off the hook, but they left a hook behind. We’ll find out who it is soon.

Yet again, neglect becomes our fortitude. People might think how can this person grow so quickly, be so resilient, dedicated and devoted to what other people might crumble under.. and the answer is that neglect is my womb of creation. I grew up with olde parents who taught me how to be independent so I wouldn’t NEED to depend on them, but they were available when offered. Neglect isn’t bad, it’s bad if they don’t teach You self-care.

Thank you guys, for you brought me closer to them. And showed me how much you love me in that doing too. But now we have a chance to love each other differently if you show up differently.

So, to my parents, thank you! You were the best example of parenting I had, I just had to see why. Now thanks to the resistance of strangers I was able to learn why I love them so much, why coming to London to make my deceased mother’s dream come through of leaving Italy, was the best thing possible.

August Alsina’s song “Mama”, I listen to, together with “Dear Mama” when I want to connect with her, echoes exactly that… kid you not, I opened my spotify and the unfinished song I was listening to before yesterday somewhen was “Dear Mama”.

Mama said, “Stay humble”
Mama said, “Stay true”
Mama said, “Boy, keep that drama far away from you”
Mama told me keep working, busting on to the future
Mama told me she lost one and she ain’t tryna lose two
But I had to find my way, and I had to get my own
Mama ain’t always right, but she never led me wrong
I don’t know if I’ma make it big, mama but I made it out
I know I didn’t make it easy, I know you had your doubts

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To keep me happy there’s no limit to the things you did
And all my childhood memories
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me
And even though I act crazy
I gotta thank the Lord that you made me
There are no words that can express how I feel

I learned to neglect fear and the 3D in the rise of our greatest opportunity. 5D living, with respect, consideration and love. Cause I must undo my words. 5D isn’t necessarily conditional love, it is in the ethereal as it’s your ability to take care of self outside of using tools, though for us all to be able to live in it, with the powers we’re gaining, we must create a blueprint to guide people, show them the dream, as my mum showed me this one.

Today we see how far my completion takes me.

Ashay.

7:00am And then I met Giorgio from Ethiopia but Italian dad, and I can see it’s the second person telling me they lost their dad in 24hr, I can see I’m seeing it either cause it’s coming for me, or because I chose to do the next season with him. We’ll see what comes from it.

And now Sainsbury’s open, we go back in. Life’s good.