A lesson I just realised even further with real life examples, is that we’ll never know what we might miss out on, if we cannot look past the child in adults.

The self sabotaging one, the entitled, the loud one, the literate-police one, the argumentative, dreamy, condescending, demanding, the reclusive, secretive, shameful one.. and what not versions of us we carry from childhood.

Now, the issue, or better the clog, the limitation, the beginning of drama, the drop that makes everything overflow, isn’t the fact one might house those traits, it’s whether they show a different face to the pre conceived notion, identity, perspective, judgement one might have had in first impressions.

I allowed myself my childself to be free coming in 2024, I’m peaking on childishness, because I know I have just as much wisdom to carry it, I have just as much infinite wise self, or the foundation would crumble. If I wasn’t cunning, I couldn’t understand those who use it as their bread n butter, meaning I couldn’t have seen steps ahead, meaning my child self couldn’t have played as freely and joyfully otherwise. Everything has sense and everything has meaning, it’s all about whatever meaning we allow into ourselves.

So yes, I love and hate you all. I love you because it’s the only thing I know for myself, and I hate you for the waste you’re allowing our consciousness to have.

The best of both worlds. It’s You and Me both. The only difference is, you hate you cannot use me in your system and in mine you could thrive together with all the ones you really don’t want to help. Cause even for the folks who leave likes to my writings, still miss the point of what’s been requested of them, unless of course they’re prepping a surprise party for me, a like doesn’t do anything to or for me, it only validates what I already know. I’m sorry but that’s how things are. Participation is what’s been asked of here, not mere acknowledgment, we’re way past that.

I don’t need your validation, the mission needs your investment, any movement outside of just observation, cause I’ve been spoon feeding for past too long.

So yeah I hate your cloaks and love your insides, whereas many love my cloak, as it’s enough reason to crucify me, and hate my insides because they’re too real for their own insides to feel safe. Have I gotten past it?! I mean I was ready for parent-hood this year, no matter how much your children are pain in the ass, we still love them and we still give them what they need in order to get to a position where they feel they can be of contribution. Until that day we still give them milk, our blood, our sweat and tears, cause I will never be the parent that hides their emotions away, if anything I will always find ways to communicate them, based on all the tools and ways we’ve agreed to communicate through.

• If that’s writing each others letters every weekend about the week before we do our weekly check-ins.. great
• If that’s through using a movie that resonates with our current situation for us to see it outside of us, then let that be
• If that’s through songs, charades, putting up weekend plays, let that too
• Or if it’s going for walks, opening our tents and grill some food while eating, or simply standing in front of each other let that be.
• Even the most controversial, if we have to speak to each other naked, only to remind ourselves of who and what we are at our most natural, that we are not better than each other, if anything we are one of another, whatever they feel comfortable with, we’ll show them all. Or I will.
  • [Don’t worry I’m not about to post a picture of me naked, I don’t need that type of attention, my essence is exposed enough, but if you want to look for them you’ll find them, as we’ve all sent naked pictures out, if they ever come back “Hey, banging parts” -No-Pun-Intended.] – In our schools only between the family, if they choose that to be a bonding way. All in safe spaces, so for the parents who like to try things on their kids, won’t have a bypass, if anything we can put lasers attached to an alarm giving specific quadrants to each and the study recorded or familiar inter-learning, where we give the topic of discussion to the parents to relay back..

Unconditional love is going beyond the hard shell, to get to the goowy insides, those everyone hold away. Now, we get to decide how long and how much drilling we want to do to get to the inner core of one, but if one shows resistance, allow them the space to see what you were always trying to accomplish from afar, and watch them open up to you when they’ve gained that confidence in self to show the lack of equipment in order to understand you.

Okay enough psychology and education for now. See ya later Child!

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