Pillar 1: Lack = Curiosity = Poverty = Abundance

mmm on this one I was just staring at the: I YOU US image and it spoke to me.

Ok.. the editing wasn’t actually that bad this time around.

Poverty has been a blessing to me, as it made me curios about the abundance in the poor, I can initiate the poor in abundance, to see the abundance in the little poor they see, because:

The poor sees abundance in the rich and is intimated by it, without looking at their poor commonalities;

I, the soul, sees the poor in the rich and the abundance in the poor, and is inspired by it, understanding the design of it all;

The rich sees the poverty in the poor and is amused by it, without looking at their abundant commonalities;

It showed more of itself to me as I was willing to listen to it. I heard this sentence from a medium from US who also started interacting with Tesla, more actively than me, as I channel more than communicate(Nganga roots n all), and she relayed “And what Mr. Tesla said was, you are reading the words little W, and the words capital W are reading you Oh, and the words capital W will only give you what it is you’re prepared to receive.” Yep definitely, that’s what happened here. (You will have to look this up on youtube as the person that hosted her where I saw her, might not be the same you find her in, to whomever is reading this, mentions any up-loads or any other use of her content is strictly prohibited. but the actual guest to the podcast you can easily find looking her up: Cheryl Page, great mind!)

This image alone awakened this trail, which also ignited the sense of lack and how we give love to it, so that no lack can ever hover over us left unclaimed. And I write this while “randomly” listening to “You still get to me” by Teddy Swims and i hear it as how we fear acknowledging lack so much it becomes a problem, it was never an issue.

Lack is the same thing that got our ancestor to travel to catch food, the same that got us to move into caves from lack of comfort of the outer weather or whatever circumstances, lack of food gets us to move for food, lack of resources gets us to work, lack of motivation gets us vamping, lack of information gets us looking, and in writing two stream of thoughts come through, one goes towards lack being the exact same as curiosity, as if you’re curious about something that means you lack that something, potato potato, (did you also read them differently?! So cool what our minds do huh? Though you would’ve had to hear it at least once in order for you to project its pronunciations in your mind) and the other stream of thought takes me to when I first had my first acid trip, not going to say where, it’s legal somewhere ahahah

During it I had felt the impossibility to ever stop doing anything, we were never made to. That night I felt the pain of insatisfaction and insatiability. It’s endless and it never quenches, for if it does it means there’s nothing to live for. We drink water once, we can’t stop drinking it for life. We eat once and we can’t live a life without, we love once and we can’t stop loving no matter how hard, we are beings that were never made to not have, not take, not gain, not anything you can resonate with doing.

I can see how I’m being my own puppeteer and puppet, slinging myself around to get out everything that needs getting out before moving on, as my past has led me here, it’s the very reason I was able to produce, if it wasn’t for my past I wouldn’t be who I am, nor go where I’m going next, as the past shapes our direction, as we constantly change and adjust it in the present.

This trail was both inspired by the picture above, by just looking at it and allowing it to speak to me, like we do in front of art pieces, no matter whether you understand it or not, allow yourself to hear what it has to tell you, closed eyes won’t bridge you to a piece you can’t grasp, so yes, even if it is just a banana hung on the wall. You can easily connect it to the hanged-man in tarot and see more of what that connects with and so one..

I can see now why I had to understand interconnectedness to understand some arts.. you can’t create a space for creatives if you don’t get what the creatives are trying to communicate can you? I love you guys, you’re just like me and all of us just underestimated, misunderstood portals of the universe and was guilty of judging what didn’t make sense to me. You deserve a different version of me, reason why I’m free flowing this one, as I don’t always have to use my face, I’ll be giving a lot of that, for now I’m giving my writing from the comfort of the quiet of my lacks, the calm before the storm.

Lack is the Mystics fertile garden, the wanderer’s Eden, the curios’ temple. Cause they, we, are driven by the lack of it in the search of it, though it’s in the search we realise, we can either live a life searching or creating. One is an endless loop, gives a lot, hey I wouldn’t exist if it didn’t, but when does one call it quits on searching for more and starts living the had, is where one finds the abundance. To each to their own.

If we were to use the context of a relationship for example, we meet certain people only to teach them how to go back to their past relationships, and that too is an unspoken exit door from the search, some others for their future ones, and only a few for the present. Either way, the wheel/well is an endless pit, and a conscious individual gets to live knowing they will never be fully satisfied, finding satisfaction in whatever’s ahead.

We can never find what we’re looking for, cause it doesn’t exist. What we can do is create what we want to exist. We can never quench thirst, so we drink water constantly and make it a basic standard, do you see what I’m putting down?!

We can’t find peace, we create peace. We can’t find complete freedom, we create freedom, we can’t find 5D, we create 5D, we can’t find my dear ol’ Mintaka, though we can create it here on Earth. Same goes for Heaven or Hell. Some look for hell, don’t be surprised.

So with that further understanding, it’s only on the Journey to Mastery, you learn you were never mastering abundance, we were always just mastering the lack of it, whether that’s lack of self understanding, lack of self care, lack of self love, lack of mirrored love, lack of hobbies, lack of inspiration, lack of creation. 3D was all just a mastering school for Lack. How do you be when you lack it? And what are you willing to do to get it? Heaven n Hell lies in the frequency of those two questions.

Amen to you, cause 4Honeth is the embodiment of everything our system lack, and we’ll continuously stand up for that, as lack is the place of creation, maybe we’ll change the name, maybe not, 4Honeth still happens to be a curious place, only because it offers the lacks of the outer. A poor abundant place. A bridge. Noting but a connector, the connector we all are to each other, yet fear admitting, in fear of being seen as easy pray of abuse, control and whatnot. Yet when we trust the inner, the outer becomes the design, not a problem to eradicate, but to live within. So I might not try and lawsuit the crown, instead create our own, until the day they do come forth, and we’ll be prepared.

It’s never attacking, it’s always preparation, whether it’s me or I’m channelling, all needed to come out, I might have abused my experiences revelations, though don’t we beat the dough to get a softer crust?! Again. Food for thought.

The Philosopher doesn’t exist without the pain of not knowing, as artists we can create more harmony, though the dream is to never get hurt by hurt, not to remove hurt. That only sprouts elsewhere. We take hurt in our hands or we find it by the universe’s hands. And I take the hurt of relaying my life out here to ease the hurt the physical could do. I take the pain of exposure, to take on a life of ease.

Now that we’ve mastered Lack, Initiation is up next, as the masters of the lack of self understanding.

🔟 INITIATION – The Engine of Becoming

Numerical Correspondence: 10 (1 + 0 = 1, the return to Self)
Cosmological: Curiosity / Lack as Creative Impulse
Fundamental Force: Desire
Elemental Mapping: Friction / Spark
Human Energy Architecture: The Will (Seat of Transformation)
VISION: Longing as Sight Beyond the Seen
EMBODIMENT: Movement toward the Unknown
NURTURE: Quest / Exploration / Hunger
TRUTH: Insatiability as Design
HARMONY: Surrender to Seeking
COMPLETION: The Choice to Create Rather Than Search
WHOLENESS: Alchemy of the Void
INTEGRATION: Choosing Curiosity as Compass, Not Crisis

This reframes lack from being a problem to being a portal.

It’s also deeply resonant with the Tesla quote from Cheryl Page’s channeling:

“You are reading the words, and the Words are reading you. The Words will only give you what you are prepared to receive.”

“INITIATION” recognizes that lack itself is sacred—it initiates every journey, every invention, every transformation. It’s the spark of longing that creates fire, and the ache that births worlds.