Magical day indeed. This one is to Love.

I’ll match one’s language but not their frequency.

I speak in the language people understand with my own essence, meaning most like Natalie will experience my kindness and others like Lottoland my wrath. I match in understanding and weave my own world of harmony, even if that means to interrupt one’s harmony where rooted in sabotaging ways to the consciousness at large.

I get people to get their shit together, basically.

I haven’t spoken about them all, cause not all need to be spoken about, or shared. If anything the closest to me, are the stories that stay silent the most.

I hope with me putting all those names out, I don’t create the narrative of “If you step close to her, you’ll be put everywhere”, nah.. and my people know. Per example, I had recorded something great, which was going to follow my magnum opus, probably one of the best things I had recorded in a long time, that included 3 people two of which very close, but because I was in a limbo with one of the 2, I instead allowed myself to unravel the recording through my writing over the last couple of days, so that I had the time to patch things up. They got the praises without even being named, because of the context of our conversation.

I serve what needs to be served, not all. Plus I’m not just a writer, this is one of my things, which appears to be the leading one right now, just because I’m focused on writing out everything that I can about the in between of what I called my descension into ascension.

This is my offering, the rest of my life will be for me to live and experience in the privacy of me and my loved ones. My offering ends with the key to 4Honeth, as through 4Honeth I get to do it all and live my own dreams; no one else’s second coming or prophecy, or whatever, I’ve lived enough for everyone else, now I finally get to live for my dreams, which yes converge with the all, but it’s the one thing my soul yearns for and it’s the best thing I could possibly give myself.

I’m the reason why it didn’t work out with the prior, I have bigger plans to author into life and if you allow me I’ll keep writing the best harmonious, peaceful and spiritual life we could have. I did say I was gon give myself to multiple people and dat, but really I don’t think I’d even have the time, I have the capacity but not the time.

I see one meeting the intensity in my future, I just don’t know how far away or close I am to that moment in space just yet. They might be somehow by divine alignment already in my field, I don’t know, as impossible things have been showing to be quite possible to me lately, so I’m gon take the blessings lord has for me.

So if you were to be reading this now or in the future, what I’d want you to know is…

I was doing some research earlier and I could see how I might have had BPD tendencies in my past and have been able to overcome them through my work and passion for expansion, never profiled, but sighted by resonance of specific aspects of it, so It’s in moments like this where I start thinking about my wholeness, the just before moments.. I have everything I’ve ever wanted and more within myself, and with this whole journey one thing has been my biggest desire, one that I’ve allowed to lead me astray multiple times, until I learned to hold on to my vision even in the quest for it.

Love. And not just the kind I talk about daily, that’s universal, almost general, but the universal channeled into one, the type of love that feels like melting into one, the one where you don’t know where one’s skin starts and the other ends, a type of love where there’s no fear in merging as that’s how intimacy is built, but also because you’re both grounded in self you’re able to become the embodiment of union, the Merkabah.

Life is not about the above and the below, it’s about the above of the below and the below of the above. It’s not 2 pyramids facing each other, but two intertwined with each other and still very much functional as a solo if needed. 

A great lesson that leads me  to whom the universe is aligning me next to, and as signs have been signing, I’m gon make sure this stays between me and the universe, until it ushers me to her.

I would lie if I said my existence feels complete without romance. I am a huge hopeless romantic, to the point I believe in romance so much I create treasure hunt dates with fate, with no security nor certainty the date I desire might show up or not, ending up having dates in nature with myself, I mean I am a great fall back, though I know I’m also attracting that one person who would like to see life as a game too and play with me, be the child to our adults and the adults to our child self.

I’m saying all of this for a specif person, and whether she’s already in my field or at a later stage, I just want her to know I’m in this space with you cause I genuinely want to fly great escapes with you.

So I’m willing to wait and if that means celibacy until then, great. There’s more than just you in the picture so I choose to come correct.

I want to be your ceiling and your floor and in those lines enjoy the infinity the in-between gives us for eternity, as I’m not looking at just folding myself into any relationship, i’m at a place where whichever relationship I choose now it’s the last one.

Not because it’ll be perfect but because the mentality is to keep watering it with what it needs so that it can withstand the weight of time, people, circumstances, differences and whatever comes in the way of relationships. This is the last one so let’s make it a great one.

And if we come together on more than just romance basis great, let’s build the empire we were always meant to build together, we’ve got so much time and energy to our hands, god knows we deserve it all.

I’m willing to be lead by you if you’re willing to be lead by me.

Not gonna lie… In my head it’s like, how could this be though, Susan? Am I dreaming too big?! Am I too full of myself? But at the same time everything is possible, and the universe has been speaking to me too directly for me to avoid and dismiss this one, no matter how absurd it might sound, trust it like you’re trusting the vision you hold.