INTRO
This piece will challenge you. I don’t write for comfort, I write for awakening. What I share here may sound like victim-blaming to some — and I accept that. I’ve spoken on this before and I’ll say it again: blame and accountability are two sides of the same mirror. If the universe sends us warnings, nudges, even through the voice of a parent saying, “Don’t go out tonight,” and we defy it, what follows is not random. Energy obeys law. Whether we like it or not, we are always participants in the outcomes of our lives.
To some, that’s uncomfortable. To me, that’s liberation. Because when you accept accountability, you reclaim authority over your mind, body, and spirit. I don’t coddle mental children who want to stay in denial; I write for those ready to fortify their inner world and govern their own frequency.
Everything that happens is energy in motion — the same principles behind M = sv or E = MC². Energy doesn’t disappear, it transforms, and when ignored, it confronts us through the harshest of lessons. My task is not to sugarcoat, but to tell you why things unfold the way they do, so you can understand how energy works and step into sovereignty.
Sensitive topic, if you’re not ready for it, I would stay away.
Some readers may be searching for answers to why they experienced rape in the first place. Not everyone perceives these mirrors of energy as negative; for some, the reflection is a necessary doorway to liberation. Guilt, shame, or confusion can cloud the path, but the moment of recognition—the subtle, quiet understanding that we have participated in our own experiences, consciously or unconsciously—becomes the key to reclaiming sovereignty.
This isn’t about blame, and it isn’t about minimizing trauma; it’s about awakening to the law of energy and the profound responsibility that comes with consciousness. When we see the cycle clearly, we find the freedom to step out of it, to heal, and to reclaim authority over our mind, body, and spirit.
This is not for everyone, but every case of Rape, just like everything else in life is self-fulfilling.
Whether it’s our conscious mind desiring something, our emotions wanting to feel something, our soul redirecting us on another path, or simply us looking for it in the physical, rape is also a call being answered.
Everything that happens in our lives we ask for, whether consciously or unconsciously.
We’ve all been mentally raped, and have kept raping each other for eons, thinking there was ever such thing as RACES ( white, black, brown… It’s all a discoloration, nothing more ). Or that Men are men… they are over-cooked women as my ex used to say lol.
So we confuse them, only because the insides of a woman are their exterior and viceversa, that’s why men are so sensitive, whether it’s their egos or feeling emasculated or else, it’s all because they are delicate little precious things inside.
Once you go Black, you can never fully go back, for nothing other than it’s our most original essence. We are all black, we just moved further away from the Sun. Yet we can go both men and women, because they’re both the same, it’s all in which composition or arrangement we prefer, in the moment, unless we choose to cap ourselves into sexuality brackets.
Again, if we are all one being, one entity, split into the many, why fuss about who’s what and how should one match their body’s shape, when we can focus on putting our vessels to good use, like investing in Heaven On Earth?! I ask myself.
Same goes for SU-sa-N, I had to come back to my N( No ) after getting SA = Sexually Assaulted.
I have given myself the ethereal experience of Rape, as it was the only one that allowed me to understand from a place of detachment, what I might have allowed myself to experience in the past in many different occasions and on different planes. I can see how my existence is about raping others ethereal realities, and I guess I paid for that price in advance, to now crumble the Old World Order, the same one that keeps us in this never ending cycle of ignorance.
I always feared having been kidnapped or raped when young, cause of this one repeating nightmare I had of being carried in a white van away, but I never knew if those memories were mine or someone else’s.
I now see, how I allowed so many people to rape me, some I had physical encounters with, some mental, some emotional and some spiritual.
I say rape, cause if I was to be in remembrance like now, there’s encounters I would’ve kept to only one plane of existence; with some I would’ve just had the great sex without considering emotions, with others I would’ve removed the sex and kept it mental, and so on..
We like to think rape is only physical, as it makes us feel good about ourselves, but we live on 4 planes ( Physical, Emotional, Mental, Spiritual )
Self fulfilling rape is wanting the Yin and not the Yang, but despite that knowing, still going for the Yin selfishly and then crying for the Yang.
I remember one of my ex situation-ships, lord.. we were having our thing back n forth and then she met what she considered “The men of her life”, I don’t need to tell you how that went.. though they could’ve had a comeback thinking I was losing my mind – let them LOL [Hi to you, if you’re reading this ]- … and yet even with him under her arm, she could not have enough of me, and I allowed us to continue the situationships, even while he was next door, not my best I must say. I know.
The whole thing was just toxic and when he was gone and I was with, who I then thought was “The woman of my life”, she drunk-spelled her feelings away, and there n then, as I was in an open relationship, and have always embodied the universe I contemplated having a poligamous relationship ( you get given lemons we turn it into lemonade at best ahahah gosh..), yet I needed to understand when someone wanted something from me, but not enough to step up to their game, to fill the boots their emotions wanted.
Now I learn to allow space to speak my Nos unless directly to me, as I’m at a frequency only the conscious and willing would even feel confident enough to approach, depending on which plane.
Many to this day try, but they soon realise all they can do is give trinkets, and we allow them to love like that, outlining the boundaries of how far they can go.
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All that to say, we all get raped, allow rape and rape on a plane of existence, so with this in mind, allow yourself to think.
Replace the Yin with what you desired, replace the Yang with what you didn’t want but allowed, and see if you cried for the Yang, while selfishly/ignorantly/unconsciously going for the Yin.
Mother Earth has taken me in as her match, no one else can match my current frequency, as it was always for her first. The womb of creation.
Preview to the unfolding we all are: This gave me tears.
Black is being guilty until proven that you’re innocent
Black is sayin’
Free my fuckin’ niggas stuck inside in prison cells
They think it’s funny, we ain’t got nothin’ to say to them
Unconditional love is strange to them, it’s amazing ’em
Black is like the sweetest fuckin’ flavour
Here’s a taste of it
But black is all I know
There ain’t a thing that I would change in it
OUTRO
So hear me clearly: I don’t speak to wound, I speak to awaken. Accountability is not cruelty — it’s sovereignty. We can keep telling ourselves we’re victims of randomness, or we can admit the harder truth: nothing arrives without us having called it in, resisted the signs, or ignored the frequencies. I called this homeless experiment for me to even give myself this realisation.
You can call that blame if you want. I call it remembrance.
Because once you understand how energy works, you can no longer pretend to be powerless. And once you accept that, the cycle breaks.
The universe doesn’t coddle. It teaches. The choice is whether we learn — or repeat.
Magnum Opus.
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