I am begging — yes, begging — for someone to show me my lacks.
Not from the lenses of society, ego, projection, insecurity, trauma, social norms, or survival-mode reflexes.

From the lenses of Consciousness.
From the deepest, most innate, most unfiltered layer of what we actually are beneath all the layers we pretend to house.

Because for far too long, people have avoided that place.
They avoid consciousness because consciousness sees everything.
It sees the truth behind your words, the truth behind your silence, the truth behind your intentions — and the truth behind mine.

I want someone to show me my blind spots the same way I continuously, willingly, and lovingly reflect others’ blind spots back to them.

For years I’ve been the mirror for many.
For years I’ve dissected, offered insight, elevated, redirected, reframed, and expanded others.
And I will continue to do so — happily — because that’s the devotion I have to our collective consciousness.

But right now?

I wish someone could show me mine.

And in the last 48 hours, opportunities presented themselves — people spoke, reacted, responded — and yet none approached me from consciousness.

Only from society.
Only from fear.
Only from ego.
Only from the narrowness of what they were taught to see.

Not one person stepped into the field of truth with me.
Not one chose depth over defence.
Not one person said:
“Let me meet you where you actually are.”

I’m not looking for someone to tell me how great I am.
I know I’m great.
But greatness doesn’t cancel growth.
And perfection doesn’t exist — only perfected foundations.

I want connection.
I want conversation.
I want inspiration.
I want someone who sees beyond my expansion into the spaces where I can still expand more.

I want someone courageous enough to tell me the truth.
Not their truth — the truth.

If you don’t think what I’m doing is valuable, then tell me why.
Tell me where I lack.
Show me what I haven’t seen yet.
Point out what I’ve missed.
Reveal the angles I haven’t looked at.

Do it from consciousness, not conditioning.
Do it from presence, not comparison.
Do it from wholeness, not woundedness.

I know how to grow — I just need something real to grow from.

Because despite the enormity of what I do and the clarity of what I see,
I’m hueman too.
I’m learning too.
I’m evolving too.

And I want to evolve with people who aren’t scared to meet me there.

I’m not perfect.
I have simply found the perfection inside my design — and I honour it.
That’s why I do what I do.
To keep growing.
To keep expanding.
To pull us forward into consciousness, not backwards into unconsciousness.

So if you see something in me —
something off, something missing, something unintegrated, something misaligned —
say it.

Say it with clarity.
Say it with consciousness.
Say it with intention.

I can take it.
I want to take it.

Because the only thing worse than the truth…
is silence that pretends truth doesn’t exist.

I’m asking.
I’m inviting.
I’m welcoming it.
Show me my lacks — so I can keep becoming more.

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A messy snippet into the next blog if from the future, a dejavu if from the past.