A warning before you go through the gates of introspection.

There will be a lot of things that will happen, or that you might express, that will sound absurd to those around you who have not done the work. This is because their lenses to life are narrower. Don’t take it personally.

As you become good at understanding and articulating your own actions, it will look to others as if you are creating actions, or calculating things before they even come about.

You could be as clear and loud, or as silent as possible, about the things you are calculating—like calculating people for specific reasons, calculating the chances of winning a lottery for specific reasons, calculating environmental actions and behaviours for specific reasons—and speaking about it openly.

But when you come forward with understandings of things you live through without calculating in the moment, yet are able to calculate and break down after their existence, it will appear as a mirror to those who live in calculation.

They may be the best calculators or the worst, and still believe they are the same as you. Or the opposite. And at times, they may even make you look worse.

We all need excuses.

But when life becomes about calculating everything, you forget to live it.

And I won’t make that mistake.

I’d rather live through calculations
than calculate through life.

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There’s so many more warnings but I’d take away the experience by telling you, as I’ve told you already a lot. It does help to tune the eye to what the other thinks of you naturally and what others see in you, after you’ve fully identified yourself, as it allows you to understand the ways one goes about what they think you are.

What inspired this thought: to you discernment