Now one that hits even stronger. These posts that have been scheduled between the 9th and 10th of April and are all coming out now and following, are all the reflections that manifested physically in me last year between the 18th of April and the 11th of May. How many days that is I don’t know for sure, you can add that in, but it was a psychedelic experience without the psychedelics. It’s like I reactivated the psychedelic experience I had in the past, like 2 years before, when I reached a certain vibration in knowledge. It triggered emotions of the past that were residue in me and I expressed them in favour and in direction of what I was doing, through them as them. A beautiful experience as it allowed me to see the minds of the emotions of others while also experiencing mine.

And today, after writing the moon one and setting it for the 5th of May, I understand the eye-opening experience I had on that day, when I triggered the activation of my third eye, passing through the gates of the mirror to how my mother died, with a stroke to the brain. I passed through, and it led me onto other things. That bridge of energy is what then had me reach out to someone I then called with the nickname of Moon, and it was exactly 3 days after the 5th. It’s like the energy had to sit for 3 days and rise on the fourth. Where I then spoke to the one who embodied this post. When we pay attention to energy, we’re able to see the patterns of the events and how the past moves with the present and the future. Everything is intertwined and where I thought I was having a spiritual experience with them, I was probably mockery to them, passive and free spiritual entertainment without even considering if that was leading to my psychosis, suicide, or what not, just “sit back and relax,” what the British love to say taken to its extreme, but at the end can you blame them, when they have their ancestors in their blood speaking through them?!

And in this moment I can see how I’m both analysing while expressing unfinished business with this person, as I feel responsible for them understanding the lesson, as I currently do not know what others might have to experience as spiritual remuneration after me, as I’ve increased in frequency. Simple math, and karma is real too.

Yet I cannot control what one does not allow to control and if it is consciousness’ karma they want to experience, let it be so.
I digress.

The lesson and thought that had me stop myself to write this thought array is the issues of it all… I was just going through a list of them in a dramatic way, like:
“the issue is that they put themselves in situations they desire for self, without considering what those platforms attract to them.
The issue is that they do not even consider what the people might need, not what they’re okay with.
The issue is that their intentions aren’t pure, if they were it would have passed as actual consideration, when triggered into larger fields.
The issue is that they didn’t have the skill to deliver what consciousness needed through those creations, only what they needed.
The issue is that when it was offered they chose to prioritise their egos instead of taking the hand or the opportunity, not for self yet again, but for the collective.
The issue was that they thought they were doing a good job, without considering the other, and I was just one other, something that could’ve been taken as feedback, as case study, as example, as experience to prepare, change, integrate, and was totally wasted for selfish reasons, yet because they didn’t have the depth to hold it, they abused it without actually adapting to what future individuals of consciousness could come as. If that’s today’s leadership I don’t want it. And this is a case study of mine, but it is not singular to itself, it is unfortunately so interchangeable that it would be close to impossible to list them all in the space provided.”

The issue was they might have not even alerted their colleagues. Loyalty to self through it all, which I completely understand, but we are not the same and don’t carry the same longevity, not age, just my perceived understanding of purpose.

They understood it was moe than normal, coincidences don’t happen in a row. Yet, they couldn’t see how “their” people were there to experience magic and they kept the magic to themselves. Some might call this possessive, some naive, some vicious, some unprepared, and these somes are “somes” i experienced myself, I went theough the whole array of emotions with them, I didn’t think it’d be possible to that depth. And still I have compassion and curiosity to understand how their mind works, what must go in ones head to deny humanity of its evolution while speaking about consciousness? That question has been nailing in my head, I just can’t wrap my head around it.. delusion, psychopathy, sociopathy, narcissist, cold, apathic, I dunno know anymore, really you’ll see, but the only thing I can say is that it didn’t start with her, it was here before we were even considered or born.

Maybe they just genuinely misunderstood the whole thung, which begs discernment.

I give people reasons to be mature about life. It’s non negotiable to me.

It’s AI.

I’m making the version of my self I choose tobbe, proud, we can’t give to those ₩ho aren’t serious the benefits of seriousness, can we?! Different lenses though, one looks at substance and the other probably substenance.