“We have more smartness around us than we have within us.”

I really don’t understand how people can let anything in their lives just go without actually appreciating it for what it is or giving it appreciation, giving it value, like in values in, like, perception. Like, I don’t understand how people can invest, not even. They could have something in their life, and they can just walk over it, like, not in the sense of, like resilience towards something, but this is more like something happens in your life and you just don’t even care to value it enough to understand what it actually is. Like, I don’t, I don’t believe that that’s a healthy way of handling things, but at the same time, it’s not. I’m not the one to live with the consequences of that, so I’m lucky not to be that mind, but at the same time, from the outside, I’m, like, very concerned because how can anyone really just leave their lives and have aspects of their lives that are just, like, people, years ago, were afraid of, like, taboo topics. I genuinely believe people have made aspects of their lives so taboo just so that they can make their lives, like, valuable. I don’t know, impressionable. I have no idea what goes on in people’s mind. But, I mean, the reality of reality that they already live by is already hugely… It’s already a very little understanding of what it actually is and how to embody it, or to actually have the embodiment of it. But to have on top of that aspects of your life, and obviously one can say, well, one creates the other, true, but not in all cases. You know? Like, how can anyone just be okay with literally chapters of their life just going unannounced, unvalued, unattended to, untethered, un… no, untethered, that’s not the right word. Literally just, like, going through different words to see the one that I mean. On… it’s not uncharted. I don’t actually know the word for it. Well, maybe I do know the word for it, it just doesn’t come to mind. But basically, yeah, not valuing it enough to give value to it and actually understanding the dynamics of it. Like, to me, it’s just so… Like, when I look at it from humanity perspective, obviously it makes perfect sense. But when I look at, not, well, humanity raised by society, but when I look at consciousness at large, it is so disruptive to consciousness, because first thing, consciousness now has not just one timeline, but however many timelines that would have been impacted by that one, I don’t know, that one acknowledgement, that one acceptance, that one conversation, that one impactful moment, that one consideration, that one perception, that one understanding, that one closure, that one whatever the case might be in anyone’s life, that would have actually made that huge impact to so many different timelines. And then it just gets holed up by, oh, I was gonna go with so many different words there, but I’m gonna hold them all. Holed up by someone that is unwilling to actually appreciate everything that consciousness has laid out in front of it. And I find that to be so insulting and disrespectful to the same source that created us. Like, I don’t understand how people can live a life without even actually acknowledging the life that we have been given. Like, and can just go about it as if nothing. Like, it’s so ignorant, but they make themselves appear so smart and so intelligent. Everything is smart: smartphones, smartwatches, smart cars, and smart homes. But they have more smartness around them than they have within them. That’s the most concerning issue out of all of them, is that they acquire smartness around them, but none within them. Like, what? Like, how? I don’t… I just don’t understand how people can live their lives like this. And because of it, I will forever value consciousness before humanity at any given moment in time. Saying human first, it’s about the human that realizes that they are a creation of consciousness, not whatever fickle human being raised by society. Because that is not a human being. That is something between a human being and a robot. And I just am not about it. I’m not here to live with hybrids. I’m here to live with human beings. If people want to be hybrids, they shouldn’t be in this world. I don’t know where they should be, but maybe they should be somewhere that doesn’t impact those who do want to have a human life, you know? An actual human life that’s valued, recognized in everything and through everything that it is. Because calling us entities, legally, we’re entities, takes away everything that makes us who we are. Like, I just don’t understand how people can be okay with it. How can someone be okay with aspects of their life just going on clarified? That’s the word: unclarified. Like, what makes someone go through aspects of their lives with them being unclarified? Makes no sense to me. It really makes no sense. Like, it’s like… it’s almost like, I don’t know… Yeah, no, actually I don’t have a direct example. The example that I was going to use, it’d be minuscule in terms of, like, representation of it. It was like having a crush and never actually doing anything about it and never actually activating the timeline that you could have had without really actually even appreciating time. Because people take… people trust time a bit too much, you know? That was my biggest issue, the one thing that had me not say goodbye to my mom and give her a hug, the one thing that I penalized myself for for so long. Well, no, not that long, because then I made sure that I actually dissected everything and I learned that she went on her own choice, and even though she was advised not to because of her health and whatnot. So she defied her own health, and in doing so, it just led there. But at the same time, I still could have put aside. Of course, I was just a teenager, so I’m not necessarily gonna hold myself on a cross, but I definitely, if I was to have the consciousness that I have now and go back in time, I would definitely give her a hug, you know? And that had me make sure that I never was gonna have regrets in my life, and I made sure and am making sure that I don’t. And if living in humanity is the one thing to regret, I’m not gonna do that to myself. But at the same time, it’s like just trying to have people value time and value life. Like those two things, I feel like we’re at a point in… Time where we really don’t actually know the value of things. Like, we don’t value time and life, and those two are really the only things that we have. Besides that, it’s any other representation of death, no matter how lively people make it look like. Jesus Christ. They’re really getting me so close to actually having no hope in humanity, and the moment I have no hope in humanity, I’m honestly, I’m fully done because I have nothing to do with this, because, like, this is just, it becomes shambolic. It becomes self-sabotaging to levels that I do not want to have in my own system. I would rather just wash my hands with it, but at the same time I don’t want to go with the regret of what if just another day, you know? And that is the beauty. It’s both beautiful, but it’s also the delaying issue, because then I’m allowing myself to be walked over by ignorant pricks, by giving the time, by giving the hope, you know, being like a martyr kind of thing. And then the other side of me kicks in and goes, Well, really and truly you’re actually building something very logical, something that will be impactful for eons beyond you, something that humanity needed, no matter how they actually reacted to it. So no matter the case, I know that I did good. I know that I am doing good, and I know that my consciousness is squeaky clean. I can live with myself. I can sleep with myself. I can love myself thoroughly, see everything about myself, accept everything about myself. Yeah. No one else can say the same, unfortunately. They created it themselves, so it is not my problem, and that is what I really have to really start living by, forever longer I choose to, is that they are not my problem. People, humans, beings, they’re just not my problem. Why? Because it’s our problem. It’s eight billions of people’s problem, not one-man show. It wasn’t supposed to be a one-person thing. Everything that I’ve relayed was supposed to be what eight billion people came together to relay, and indirectly some did, but directly no humanity as a whole has even come close to what I have built. Like nowhere. Nowhere close. And that is the issue, because people don’t even question. Like they look at what I’m building and they don’t ask themselves, Why isn’t my, I don’t know, my employer setting things up like this in their company? Why isn’t my leader thinking about this project in politics? Why isn’t my governor or prime minister thinking about actually restructuring the wholeness of the system? Why doesn’t the rich guy actually invest in a free ecosystem within it, as they have the money to fund it? Why? Like all these questions, like the one thing that I really hope for with this blog is that people ask themselves those questions, those specific type of questions. Because it’s about seeing it in life. It’s not just about hearing it from me and worshipping me. Because if they see in life, at least it’s not all on me. It’s not— I’m not special. I just happen to have been observing life, which makes me special, because people don’t actually observe life, because observing life would have to have you accept life for what it actually is, and in order to do that you have to accept the things that you don’t like about yourself, and most are inept to actually have the courage to face themselves. So yeah, that is a very sticky one, isn’t it? But yeah, just to close it off, I really don’t understand how people can have an aspect of their life going unclarified. It should be a sickness. It should be a disease. It should be an illness. Because not having clarified narratives or clarified dynamics of parts of your life, that means that you walk with that unclarification. You walk with that ignorance, and there’s no worse thing than that, because that’s exactly what brought us in this whole circumstance in the first place. That’s what brought us in living life in society in a way that doesn’t actually benefit humanity. So anyone that thinks like that should really be heavily checked. But because it’s normalized and it’s something that eight billion of people do and practice daily, of course it doesn’t seem like a problem. Forgive and forget, who cares, right? That’s what goes these days. But life is not like that. Life should be about remembering it all. Because you would have to understand it all. You don’t have to remember every single individual moment, though you can remember specific details, you can remember, like, specific concept, you can remember so much. But to go with actual aspects and gaps of lives. Like how people just forget intense moments, or try to forget intense moments, which is only self-deluding, because really and truly they’re not trying to forget a moment. They’re just trying to not having to cope with the emotional burden of it, which never goes away, no matter what they try and say to themselves. The emotional burden doesn’t actually go away. The same way I’m chasing something that really and truly might not even ground itself, that is the emotional burden that I carry on every single morning. But does it make me want to stop? Absolutely not. Humans’ ignorance makes me want to stop, but at the same time, it just happens that their ignorance is the same thing that I’m needed. It’s the same reason why I’m needed. So one really removes the other. It’s like it nullifies, which is amazing, because at least I don’t have to give the power to humans to ever actually have the ability to stop me. I will and shall stop only when I feel like I have represented consciousness fully in its wholeness. And there is that. I know my value and if I ever share myself, the only reason why I share myself is because I know my value. Too many people share themselves without actually knowing what value is, nor knowing their own individual value. It’s so paradoxically wrong that this exists.