Read with ” Glory Days ” or ” I’m on Fire ” – Bruce Springsteen
Biological prenatal influence is real. Maternal nutrition, stress physiology, environmental exposures, sensory experiences and placental processes can influence fetal development. Research has examined the effects of maternal stress hormones, and fetuses can respond to familiar sounds, particularly the mother’s voice. Sounds are a manifestation of energy, which doesn’t stop energies around our gestational period from affecting the fetus, meaning we all benefit from a healthier, safer and peaceful society. An extractive one can reinforce the extractiveness a child will come to serve in the world. Check Hitler’s gestational period and what happened in his developmental life and what were the passive energies the egg he rose from were surround.
The world I was conceived into.
The polarities I see in my life.
20 November 1998 — 14 August 1999. The energies, the events, their opposites, their mirrors and the further births I am describing.
01 / The diagram as I drew it
Four different quadrants. Recognition and knowledge at the top; denial and ignorance at the bottom. Consciousness and immortality at the left; societal and mortality at the right. The circles/arrows are kept around the cross.
Transcribed from the uploaded handwritten diagram, rotated upright. On a phone, scroll horizontally to read the original left/right axes and all four quadrants.
“Below the X line, it’s where illusions exist. These are inherited illusions whether from life’s participation or societal scripts.”
Not interchangeable: upper-left = Infinite Reality Lived; upper-right = Infinite Inherited Reality; lower-left = Reality’s Illusions; lower-right = Inherited Illusions. The upper/lower quadrants do not all share the same name, and the horizontal side labels do not describe the historical/event cards below.
02 / The way I am reading my gestation
“These were all the energies and possibly more happening around my family directly, that were my energetical fuel, what I imprinted with.”
“Basically, we’ve already, as humanity, we already established that the moment that our egg gets activated, all the energies around us also imprint on the fetus as it grows within the womb of the mom.”
“And I’m now looking at over a life, over a stage of life, how we see the polarity of the opposite polarity of those energies that we would have experienced during that period of time.”
“everything that came throughout that period I could see the direct mirroring in my life and especially these 2 last years as i approach a further birth into society’s culture with my success.”
03 / All the historical polarities I described
Each entry keeps the period/event and my own stated correspondence separate from the two axes in my handwritten graph. These are my personal associations, and the quotations retain my wording instead of replacing it with someone else’s interpretation.
The euro
“during 1999, the euro rose”
“and funny enough, I’m creating a system that removes money from the conversation.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“I’m now looking at over a life, over a stage of life, how we see the polarity of the opposite polarity of those energies that we would have experienced during that period of time.”
The Matrix
“The matrix”
“I’m seeing the matrix as the life matrix as a figuration of consciousness and the system in which we live in to be a patriarchs. And so I’m building the matrix that is rooted in humanity, in consciousness, what the religious call the new covenant.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“No wonder matrix and star wars depict wnergies I heavily embody now and everything that came throughout that period I could see the direct mirroring in my life and especially these 2 last years as i approach a further birth into society’s culture with my success.”
"No wonder matrix and star wars depict wnergies I heavily embody now and everything that came throughout that period I could see the direct mirroring in my life and especially these 2 last years as i approach a further birth into society’s culture with my success."
Star Wars
“When you look at Star Wars and the things that Star Wars covers”
“those are the things that I am literally embodying, especially the spiritual— what’s the word for it? Spiritual discipline. Because, yeah, to represent consciousness, you must be spiritually disciplined through it all, which is what I call humanly responsible, humanly mature, life maturity.”
Total solar eclipse
“When we look at the total, total solar eclipse that happened just three days before my birthday. So that is a huge energy.”
“And I feel like romantically wise, I’m still going through that solar, well the solar eclipse started last year in my romantic life.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“And the reason why is because the individual that I exchanged that type of energy, that intensity of energy, has now given the clarity just yet to either wait and stay devoted through their, through their own process of getting ready for it or if if it’s not them then obviously take that devotion with me somewhere else. But because this person doesn’t want to give any type of clarity whatsoever, I’m still going through that eclips, eclipsical, eclipse energy when it comes to that specific aspect.”
Melissa computer virus
“The 26th March 1999 computer virus”
“we’ve seen this year the storm of AI.”
NASA Stardust
“NASA launched Stardust, a mission designed to collect and eventually return particles from a comet”
“I think the aspect of NASA that’s more relevant to me is the fact that, is the 23rd July the woman commander”
Eileen Collins / Chandra X-ray Observatory
“the 23rd July the woman commander”
“me being a woman, of course, using my X-ray observation skills in humanity. Not X-ray the same way the machine X-rays through our skin, but through our societal narratives and illusions and whatnot.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“So even me doing and giving this whole explanation is an X-ray explanation which echoes the Aileen Collins I’ve had both Russian and Americans look into the work that I’m doing. I’m not going to touch too much on that one. Same thing for China.”
"For example, if you look at the picture, it’s a YX diagram that has recognition at the top, societal and mortality at the right, denial, ignorance at the bottom, and life and mortality at the left."
Falun Gong in China
“China began its crackdown on Falun Gong. Chinese authorities detained practitioners and leaders and formally banned the spiritual movement, initiating a prolonged campaign of repression”
“that is basically the mirror of what I’ve been doing with the spiritualists, holding them accountable to their own acts because being such non-physical energies, they need to have physical grounding so that people can actually integrate it in the system in which they live in.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“Because there’s different layers of existence in which we live in and we have to take account of all of them in order to be able to create a coherent and cohesive and smooth understanding of all, of how all the energies manifest through all the different gates of our existence and how they all connect. Because that’s how we’re able to then see how all of our energies actually do connect.”
"I can see how my conscious energy connects to my humanitarian energy, how it connects to my spiritual energy, how it connects to my societal energy, how it connects to my cultural energy, how it connects, you know, like it should be smooth."
India, Pakistan and Kashmir
“When we look at India and Pakistan, like two very close countries, even now they’re still fighting to be fair for Kashmir.”
“But I can also see the mirror to the two countries in the similar area of the world. They are still fighting for boundary, for a geographical man-made created split of land responsibility, which is between Russia and Ukraine.”
High school shooting
“The high school shooting”
“I see as the energy between me and my pseudo partner reinforced the birth of the 12 universal bar blueprint module perspective architecture, laws, you know, you can use different words to the exact same thing.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“And in the birthing of those, we sacrifice the older versions of ourselves, me actively them passively. We’re not actually actively working together, but we are working together through the lenses of consciousness as two non, well two players of consciousness. Because everyone works together under the lenses of consciousness. It’s whether to decide to actively work together as human beings, you know. And because I’m working with consciousness, I made sure that my contribution and their absence of contribution will still a contribution because where there was physical absence, energetical contribution came through.”
Bill Clinton impeachment
“the impeachment of President Bill Clinton”
“I can definitely see how I’ve been holding accountable like the politicians, especially the work that that guy has been doing in UK.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“And we’re gonna see in the UK impeachment very soon. It has not been abolished, but it hasn’t happened since 1803 or 1903. I think it’s 1803. But we’ll see very soon because I’ll make sure to give them a side of sore eyes. What was it? No, that’s not how you say it. Oh, give them a reason to remember that that still exists. Simply because of how, well, when you look at how impeachments happen before, it was more for societal lacks, societal quote-unquote crimes. This time around will be life crimes in the sense like lack of maturity especially should be held even to higher and greater standards by those who are at the top of the chain of societal matters, societal maturity. Because if not, that’s when the whole thing just splits apart, where there’s an increased societal maturity but then a increase also in life immaturity.”
American and British bombing of Iraq
“American and British forces bombing Iraq”
“I mean I don’t even know why the UN has inspections of weapons, how does the UN, after having seen all the harm that weapons bring, how they can even be involved in that? Like it doesn’t make sense to me.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“And this talks upon the same institutional hypocrisy that I was talking about, both when it comes to the blind spot but also the hypocritical denial. Hypocritical because the UN talks about saving the world but then they also supervise weapons. The two don’t go hand to hand. They just don’t, especially when you’re talking about air and missiles and things like that. It just does not go hand to hand. The two are just no.”
Scottish devolution
“Scotland regained the parliament during devolution.”
“So like there was a devolution in 1999 and that also mirrors how what Andy Burnham is bringing is nothing new. It’s something that already happened in the past. Clearly has not worked because the situation hasn’t changed after 27 years. So they’re just recycling energies for the simple purpose of recycling energy and seeing and showing as if things are new but aren’t.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“But at the same time I also see how SHS’s governance rose and that is definitely a bigger win, a bigger win for humanity.”
Macpherson Inquiry
“When we look at then the Macpherson inquiry”
“I’ve spoken a lot about slaves and white and black and appropriation and all of that. And how even letters from the, not letters but even through the letters that I wrote through the project of the Museum of Doom where there words that the colonizers have not grown the self-respect, the courage, the accountability to actually provide to those that they have harmed over long periods of time and they’re still benefit from it.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“Like for example, yesterday I came across how Andorra is like one of the most peaceful countries or cities in the whole world. They don’t even have a police force and whatnot. And the first question that came to mind, well, who are to pay for that to happen? Who are to pay historically, especially between France and Spain? Goddamn, those two forces especially. What countries had to pay? What slaves had to pay for that to happen, you know?”
Putin
“When you look at Putin, I mean Putin is doing a lot of talking these days.”
“But also I can see the mirror of how he, there was a point where he showed to like billionaires and whatnot who still was the head of the country because they were trying to take advantage of like some workers and whatnot. And he had them sign something like publicly in front of everyone to show the fact that he was the commander. That’s the similar approach to how I’m going about everything that I do.”
NATO
“And when it comes to the NATO”
“we have to recognize the NATO to be basically the manifestation of the ignorance of politicians that don’t actually know how to converse and figure out strategies through what their roles are.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“To be a politician is to be someone that uses their vocal and strategic understandings. And how, when you look at what a politician should be about, a politician should be about the ability to draft policies, draft contracts, draft partnerships, draft strategic solutions that avoid escalations. That’s what a politician is about in terms of how they organize resources throughout a government, a country, and the relationships of that country, of those countries with other ones. When you look at those same roles being utilized to excuse bombings and wars, that’s when you really start looking at the fact that they actually don’t know how to create win-win propositions or win-win solutions that allow people to not feel like a war is the only option.”
"Because if people get to that point, a war is an end. It’s the worst-case scenario of an escalation."
War and political responsibility
“Wars, all the wars that exist now, they’re remnants of wars that existed prior. They’re not new wars.”
“because you can’t take back a bomb. Once a bomb, it’s being dropped, the lives are done. Like, there’s nothing that you can do to bring those lives back.”
My continued explanation, in my own words
“Because if people get to that point, a war is an end. It’s the worst-case scenario of an escalation. It’s at the end of it, because you can’t take back a bomb. Once a bomb, it’s being dropped, the lives are done. Like, there’s nothing that you can do to bring those lives back. But that is not the way that politicians should handle things, because they are at the top of the chain of the societal maturity. But when they behave like that, they put themselves at the bottom of the chain of life maturity and put themselves actually at the top of the chain of life immaturity. And at the same time, they are also ignorant to see the consequences of wars. Wars, all the wars that exist now, they’re remnants of wars that existed prior. They’re not new wars. There’s nothing new to them. They’re all wars that have been continued by those who stayed behind from the wars that existed before. If those wars years back had been handled differently, then things would have been handled completely. Like, we wouldn’t be in a state of so many wars at this current moment in time if it wasn’t for that.”
"Wars, all the wars that exist now, they’re remnants of wars that existed prior. They’re not new wars."
04 / The X-ray explanation — death and birth as thresholds
My description of passing through states of existence, from consciousness into matter, the womb, childhood, other social identities and back through consciousness.
“the reason why I say that we die is because death is only the end of a state into the beginning of another one. So death and birth are the exact same thing. They’re just marks of thresholds and it’s upon how we choose to perceive it is how we choose to see it and how we call it.”
“We die from consciousness into matter.”
“we die in consciousness when we incarnate in the egg, when the egg activates.”
“So we die from the womb but we born into the world outside of our mothers.”
“And then we’re a child. And then we die when we’re not seen as a child anymore”
“from being, for example, a no one to being famous.”
“when our body dies, we incarnate in the Taurus field. And contribute to the movement of energies on Earth.”
“It can and it shall and it does move and change in states.”
05 / The different gates of the same energy
“I can see how my conscious energy connects to my humanitarian energy, how it connects to my spiritual energy, how it connects to my societal energy, how it connects to my cultural energy, how it connects, you know, like it should be smooth.”
“If someone has a societal energy but then that goes against the spiritual energy that they learn and that goes against the cultural energy that they consume, all those create fractalities of one energy.”
“Because everyone works together under the lenses of consciousness. It’s whether to decide to actively work together as human beings, you know.”
06 / The political consequences I added afterwards
“it’s not just about negotiation, it’s about accountability and responsibility.”
“They are responsible for their country in the moment in which they are present there and in the future as well.”
“Look at BRICS, the whole organization to dethrone the US dollar.”
“If the US had thought and considered the extent of their consequences in advance, they would have been able to consider those same organizations and countries that want to detach themselves from them”
……
I was conceived on the 20th of November and born on the 14th august.
These were all the energies and possibly more happening around my family directly, that were my energetical fuel, what I imprinted with. No wonder matrix and star wars depict wnergies I heavily embody now and everything that came throughout that period I could see the direct mirroring in my life and especially these 2 last years as i approach a further birth into society’s culture with my success. Basically, we’ve already, as humanity, we already established that the moment that our egg gets activated, all the energies around us also imprint on the fetus as it grows within the womb of the mom. And I’m now looking at over a life, over a stage of life, how we see the polarity of the opposite polarity of those energies that we would have experienced during that period of time. For example, during 1999, the euro rose, and funny enough, I’m creating a system that removes money from the conversation. The matrix, I’m seeing the matrix as the life matrix as a figuration of consciousness and the system in which we live in to be a patriarchs. And so I’m building the matrix that is rooted in humanity, in consciousness, what the religious call the new covenant. When you look at Star Wars and the things that Star Wars covers, those are the things that I am literally embodying, especially the spiritual— what’s the word for it? Spiritual discipline. Because, yeah, to represent consciousness, you must be spiritually disciplined through it all, which is what I call humanly responsible, humanly mature, life maturity.
When we look at the total, total solar eclipse that happened just three days before my birthday. So that is a huge energy. And I feel like romantically wise, I’m still going through that solar, well the solar eclipse started last year in my romantic life. And the reason why is because the individual that I exchanged that type of energy, that intensity of energy, has now given the clarity just yet to either wait and stay devoted through their, through their own process of getting ready for it or if if it’s not them then obviously take that devotion with me somewhere else. But because this person doesn’t want to give any type of clarity whatsoever, I’m still going through that eclips, eclipsical, eclipse energy when it comes to that specific aspect. The 26th March 1999 computer virus, we’ve seen this year the storm of AI. NASA launched Stardust, a mission designed to collect and eventually return particles from a comet I think the aspect of NASA that’s more relevant to me is the fact that, is the 23rd July the woman commander, me being a woman, of course, using my X-ray observation skills in humanity. Not X-ray the same way the machine X-rays through our skin, but through our societal narratives and illusions and whatnot. For example, if you look at the picture, it’s a YX diagram that has recognition at the top, societal and mortality at the right, denial, ignorance at the bottom, and life and mortality at the left. Below the X line, it’s where illusions exist. These are inherited illusions and on the other side reality is illusion. For example, life, denial. So if you were to like look at the relationship between life and mortality and denial, ignorance, reality is illusions is the denial of already existing and already being immortal, meaning that we die multiple times throughout our lifetime because as we are consciousness, when you look at consciousness, which is what I wrote as life, consciousness is just pure energy. We die from consciousness into matter. So as we born on Earth from the womb of our, well actually even before, we die in consciousness when we incarnate in the egg, when the egg activates. Science has already shown that there’s like a point where it’s like the egg, like radiates as if life is, like it’s like awakened itself. So like that’s like the point of like life. The point of like consciousness incarnating into the egg. And that’s where we start our earthly life. And then we die again when we get born. So because we come on Earth but then we are in the womb. And then from the womb we born and die again. So we die from the womb but we born into the world outside of our mothers. And then we’re a child. And then we die when we’re not seen as a child anymore, for whatever reason, whether that’s, I don’t know, for women like a period or if it is the 18 years mark or if it is like, I don’t know, getting a job or becoming a parent ourselves. And then we die again from having a normal, well, from being, for example, a no one to being famous. So we dying into further aspects of matter. And the reason why I say that we die is because death is only the end of a state into the beginning of another one. So death and birth are the exact same thing. They’re just marks of thresholds and it’s upon how we choose to perceive it is how we choose to see it and how we call it. For example, when we die from matter, so when our body dies, we incarnate in the Taurus field. And contribute to the movement of energies on Earth. And then all over again back into consciousness and the cycle continues. But it’s a continuous cycle because consciousness and as we know, energy cannot be stopped, cannot be contained, cannot, all of that. It can and it shall and it does move and change in states. So even me doing and giving this whole explanation is an X-ray explanation which echoes the Aileen Collins I’ve had both Russian and Americans look into the work that I’m doing. I’m not going to touch too much on that one. Same thing for China. But also 2022, well 22nd July 1999, China began its crackdown on Falun Gong. Chinese authorities detained practitioners and leaders and formally banned the spiritual movement, initiating a prolonged campaign of repression that is basically the mirror of what I’ve been doing with the spiritualists, holding them accountable to their own acts because being such non-physical energies, they need to have physical grounding so that people can actually integrate it in the system in which they live in. Because there’s different layers of existence in which we live in and we have to take account of all of them in order to be able to create a coherent and cohesive and smooth understanding of all, of how all the energies manifest through all the different gates of our existence and how they all connect. Because that’s how we’re able to then see how all of our energies actually do connect. I can see how my conscious energy connects to my humanitarian energy, how it connects to my spiritual energy, how it connects to my societal energy, how it connects to my cultural energy, how it connects, you know, like it should be smooth. If someone has a societal energy but then that goes against the spiritual energy that they learn and that goes against the cultural energy that they consume, all those create fractalities of one energy. And that’s what reinforces the fractalization and the, to me even the like things like split personalities and all those things. But again, that’s not the, I don’t have to go too much into that right now. I just want to go through like couple of the events. When we look at India and Pakistan, like two very close countries, even now they’re still fighting to be fair for Kashmir. But I can also see the mirror to the two countries in the similar area of the world. They are still fighting for boundary, for a geographical man-made created split of land responsibility, which is between Russia and Ukraine. And then when we look at the euro, I already mentioned that. The high school shooting I see as the energy between me and my pseudo partner reinforced the birth of the 12 universal bar blueprint module perspective architecture, laws, you know, you can use different words to the exact same thing. And in the birthing of those, we sacrifice the older versions of ourselves, me actively them passively. We’re not actually actively working together, but we are working together through the lenses of consciousness as two non, well two players of consciousness. Because everyone works together under the lenses of consciousness. It’s whether to decide to actively work together as human beings, you know. And because I’m working with consciousness, I made sure that my contribution and their absence of contribution will still a contribution because where there was physical absence, energetical contribution came through. Then when we look at the impeachment of President Bill Clinton, I can definitely see how I’ve been holding accountable like the politicians, especially the work that that guy has been doing in UK. But also it could be speaking about, yes, because I looked actually, I looked at impeachment and in UK. And we’re gonna see in the UK impeachment very soon. It has not been abolished, but it hasn’t happened since 1803 or 1903. I think it’s 1803. But we’ll see very soon because I’ll make sure to give them a side of sore eyes. What was it? No, that’s not how you say it. Oh, give them a reason to remember that that still exists. Simply because of how, well, when you look at how impeachments happen before, it was more for societal lacks, societal quote-unquote crimes. This time around will be life crimes in the sense like lack of maturity especially should be held even to higher and greater standards by those who are at the top of the chain of societal matters, societal maturity. Because if not, that’s when the whole thing just splits apart, where there’s an increased societal maturity but then a increase also in life immaturity. Now when we look at American and British forces bombing Iraq, I mean I don’t even know why the UN has inspections of weapons, how does the UN, after having seen all the harm that weapons bring, how they can even be involved in that? Like it doesn’t make sense to me. And this talks upon the same institutional hypocrisy that I was talking about, both when it comes to the blind spot but also the hypocritical denial. Hypocritical because the UN talks about saving the world but then they also supervise weapons. The two don’t go hand to hand. They just don’t, especially when you’re talking about air and missiles and things like that. It just does not go hand to hand. The two are just no. Scotland regained the parliament during devolution. So like there was a devolution in 1999 and that also mirrors how what Andy Burnham is bringing is nothing new. It’s something that already happened in the past. Clearly has not worked because the situation hasn’t changed after 27 years. So they’re just recycling energies for the simple purpose of recycling energy and seeing and showing as if things are new but aren’t. But at the same time I also see how SHS’s governance rose and that is definitely a bigger win, a bigger win for humanity. When we look at then the Macpherson inquiry, I’ve spoken a lot about slaves and white and black and appropriation and all of that. And how even letters from the, not letters but even through the letters that I wrote through the project of the Museum of Doom where there words that the colonizers have not grown the self-respect, the courage, the accountability to actually provide to those that they have harmed over long periods of time and they’re still benefit from it. Like for example, yesterday I came across how Andorra is like one of the most peaceful countries or cities in the whole world. They don’t even have a police force and whatnot. And the first question that came to mind, well, who are to pay for that to happen? Who are to pay historically, especially between France and Spain? Goddamn, those two forces especially. What countries had to pay? What slaves had to pay for that to happen, you know? When you look at Putin, I mean Putin is doing a lot of talking these days. But also I can see the mirror of how he, there was a point where he showed to like billionaires and whatnot who still was the head of the country because they were trying to take advantage of like some workers and whatnot. And he had them sign something like publicly in front of everyone to show the fact that he was the commander. That’s the similar approach to how I’m going about everything that I do. And when it comes to, when it comes to the NATO, we have to recognize the NATO to be basically the manifestation of the ignorance of politicians that don’t actually know how to converse and figure out strategies through what their roles are. To be a politician is to be someone that uses their vocal and strategic understandings. And how, when you look at what a politician should be about, a politician should be about the ability to draft policies, draft contracts, draft partnerships, draft strategic solutions that avoid escalations. That’s what a politician is about in terms of how they organize resources throughout a government, a country, and the relationships of that country, of those countries with other ones. When you look at those same roles being utilized to excuse bombings and wars, that’s when you really start looking at the fact that they actually don’t know how to create win-win propositions or win-win solutions that allow people to not feel like a war is the only option. Because if people get to that point, a war is an end. It’s the worst-case scenario of an escalation. It’s at the end of it, because you can’t take back a bomb. Once a bomb, it’s being dropped, the lives are done. Like, there’s nothing that you can do to bring those lives back. That’s where organizations like NATO to me only show how much all the countries that have contributed to it over this course of years, they have really just admitted not to have the actual skill to do the job properly and to know how to actually handle relationships. Which, again, is the definition of what a politician should be about. Just quite interesting. And it just makes everyone in it looks bad, because how can you justify? If anyone, if at any point, if we were to go through history, right, and any politician that has said yes to a bomb, if there could have been a different solution found, that means that they would have had gone for the easy solution, which is just drop the bomb and let it end there. It’s like, I don’t want to care about it anymore. I don’t want to think about it anymore. Just end it there, right? But that is not the way that politicians should handle things, because they are at the top of the chain of the societal maturity. But when they behave like that, they put themselves at the bottom of the chain of life maturity and put themselves actually at the top of the chain of life immaturity. And at the same time, they are also ignorant to see the consequences of wars. Wars, all the wars that exist now, they’re remnants of wars that existed prior. They’re not new wars. There’s nothing new to them. They’re all wars that have been continued by those who stayed behind from the wars that existed before. If those wars years back had been handled differently, then things would have been handled completely. Like, we wouldn’t be in a state of so many wars at this current moment in time if it wasn’t for that.






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