I bet we were both hoping not to be responsible for this one…

You never had to feel this type of sense of responsibility. I created a prison I thought I could escape by waving the flags of society, hopeing someone would either contribute, tske it off of my hands or institutions would actually fixed themselves by the time I got here. I guess that didn’t work, so now I don’t even get to experience the perks of freedom. Straight from conditionsl freedom to responsible freedom…

Ugh. I hate you. I’m being a brat now, I know, but my emotions as just as valid as my cognitive abilities. Wall away if you don’t want to see them. I really hat people’s ignorance. Dammit. Can adults be adults for once?! Can you?! I’ve had to entertain myself, but this has been the greatest and nost dissapointing creation ever. Dissapointing for the fact a 24yrs had to put her life on pause for this and now I’m 27, and greatest creation cause I did it so graciously. I could have been a worse menace trust me.. so many times I thought of it…. i hate you, but I really don’t cause I don’t know how to hate… but it sounds good.

Ps: this is a temporary feeling, I release intense emotions like these out of my field to the eyes responsible and then crack on. I just needed you to know, cause in you knowing I free myself of the emotion. I just needed to be honestr, clear and transparent about it. I will be ready for the occasion, I just also allow myself a couple of hourse of cold feet before any escalating energies. I feel it, like I felt it upon moment of awakening, I just don’t know where it’ll come from. Until then Good night and happy Guy Fawkes! I feel better already.