All. From the most common to the executive elite. You need to be able to read the full spectrum, not just the one that is at the top of the bottom of the chain.

THE BLESSING OF BEING DISREGARDED BY THOSE WHO DISREGARD EVERYTHING AUTHENTIC.

— SNW | SHS – HUMAN FIRST

Oh, humanity.

Malcolm X made a rather fascinating observation about the elevation of Black people by the very establishments whose treatment of Black people ought to be investigated.

And it brings me to something I am extraordinarily grateful for.

I AM NOT EXALTED BY THEM.

And goodness gracious, what a blessing that has turned out to be.

Because imagine if I had spent all this time trying to become someone they would approve of.

Imagine if I had made myself agreeable enough to be invited into their circles.

Imagine if I had softened my investigations, moderated my language, diluted my findings, accommodated their contradictions and learned to politely look away whenever the evidence became inconvenient.

Imagine if, at any given moment in my journey, I HAD SIGNED A NON-DISCLOSURE AGREEMENT.

Oh, how terrible.

Terrible for me.

Terrible for SHS – Human First.

And potentially terrible for humanity.

Because how much of what I have investigated, discovered, experienced and documented would I have been contractually obliged to keep to myself?

How many institutional contradictions would have remained unexamined?

How many encounters would have become confidential?

How many opportunities to expose the consequences of established systems would have disappeared behind a signature?

IMAGINE SELLING THE FREEDOM TO INVESTIGATE HUMANITY TO THE VERY SYSTEMS YOU ARE INVESTIGATING.

How wonderfully convenient that would have been for them.

And how extraordinarily foolish that would have been for me.

You see, I don’t make it particularly easy for these establishments to support me.

And I rather like it that way.

Because to support me, they would have to confront what I am exposing.

They would have to explain their own contradictions.

They would have to examine the consequences of the systems they have spent their lives maintaining, defending, celebrating and financing.

And quite frankly, I have not made SHS – Human First into something that can be comfortably placed on a corporate brochure while everything SHS investigates continues operating exactly as before.

YOU CANNOT CELEBRATE HUMAN FIRST WHILE REFUSING TO INVESTIGATE WHAT HAS BEEN PUT BEFORE THE HUMAN.

That would rather defeat the entire purpose, wouldn’t it?

And this is precisely why their disregard has been so useful to me.

They leave me alone to investigate.

They leave me outside their circles.

They leave me without the obligations that so often accompany institutional recognition.

And from the outside, I get to observe the architecture.

Not merely what they tell humanity.

But what their decisions produce.

What their institutions preserve.

What their celebrations conceal.

What their policies contradict.

And what the consequences reveal.

I DON’T NEED TO BE INSIDE THE BUILDING TO INVESTIGATE ITS FOUNDATIONS.

In fact, being outside may be the very reason I can see so much of it.

And the day they decide to elevate me?

Well, that will be another rather interesting investigation.

Because one of two things may have happened.

Either they will have arrived at that familiar conclusion:

“IF YOU CAN’T BEAT THEM, JOIN THEM.”

And having found that the investigations will not simply disappear, they will have decided that standing beside what they once disregarded is preferable to continuing to defend themselves against it.

Or…

I WILL HAVE EARNED MY PLACE MY OWN WAY.

Without abandoning the investigations.

Without surrendering my autonomy.

Without exchanging my integrity for acceptance.

Without having to become a representative of everything I have spent my time examining.

And if that recognition comes, it will have to coexist with my freedom to continue exposing what requires exposure.

Because elevation, to me, is not the destination.

INTEGRITY AND CONTINUITY ARE.

And that brings me to the spiritual beauty of this entire arrangement.

I have absolutely no desire for the devil to like me.

Why would I?

It is not the devil’s role to love Christ while remaining committed to everything that contradicts Christ.

Only when a little Christ bulb begins to illuminate within it will that recognition become possible.

And until then?

Let it dislike the light.

Let it disregard what it does not recognise.

Let it dismiss what it cannot accommodate.

Let it remain uncomfortable with what refuses to conform to its conditions.

Because the purpose of the light is not to obtain the darkness’s approval.

IT IS TO MAKE VISIBLE WHAT THE DARKNESS HAS CONCEALED.

And when I speak of Christ here, I am speaking of the principle of an existence that does not need to abandon its integrity to be accepted by the very structures it challenges.

An existence that remains authentic.

Natural.

Cohesive with the three-body system through which we experience life.

An existence that does not amputate its consciousness, its physical reality or its deeper nature merely to become socially acceptable.

Because what an extraordinary contradiction it would be to spend my life investigating humanity’s disconnection from its own nature, only to disconnect myself from mine in exchange for recognition.

I WOULD HAVE BECOME THE VERY CONTRADICTION I WAS INVESTIGATING.

And perhaps that is the greatest blessing in all of this.

Being disregarded has not prevented me from developing SHS.

It has not prevented me from investigating.

It has not prevented me from writing, observing, questioning, exposing and creating.

It has not prevented me from examining the Twelve Universal Bar systems.

It has not prevented me from building an entirely different proposition for humanity’s future.

If anything, it has given me the space to do so without having to constantly negotiate whether my next observation might upset somebody who has invested in my silence.

And how liberating is that?

I DO NOT HAVE TO PROTECT THEIR REPUTATIONS AT THE EXPENSE OF MY OWN INTEGRITY.

I do not have to manufacture admiration for them.

I do not have to pretend their achievements cancel their consequences.

I do not have to ask permission to investigate a contradiction.

And I certainly do not have to become their favourite Black woman to make a contribution to humanity.

Malcolm X’s observation reminds us to examine the relationship between recognition and power.

But my own experience has led me to another question.

WHAT IF THE GREATEST GIFT AN ESTABLISHMENT CAN GIVE SOMEONE WHO IS INVESTIGATING IT IS TO REFUSE TO ABSORB THEM?

Oh, the irony.

They may believe they are withholding something valuable.

Meanwhile, they are preserving the very independence that allows the investigation to continue.

So, thank you for the disregard.

Thank you for the absence of invitations that might have demanded my silence.

Thank you for the distance.

Thank you for leaving me with the freedom to build something that does not depend on your approval.

And should recognition eventually arrive, we shall investigate the conditions of that recognition too.

Because I am not interested in being exalted by a system whose consequences I have yet to finish examining.

I AM INTERESTED IN WHETHER THE SYSTEM ITSELF DESERVES TO CONTINUE BEING EXALTED.

And that, humanity, is an entirely different investigation.

I WOULD RATHER REMAIN UNCELEBRATED AND FREE TO EXPOSE THAN BECOME CELEBRATED AND OBLIGED TO CONCEAL.

— SNW

SHS – HUMAN FIRST

The Womb of The Unknown Need.

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Write a piece on this keeping my tone only, as I am glad that I am not exalted and I get to continuosly expose. The day they do elevate me it’ll either be because of ” when you cant beat them join them” as I’m exposing them all or I would have earned my spot my way. I don’t make it easy for them to support me and that works perfectly to get the space to expose them. Imagine if I had signed a nda at any given moment in time?! Terrible for me, shs and humanity.

It is a blessing to be disregarded by those who disregard anything that is authentic natural and cohesive to the 3 body system we live in. I don’t want the devil to like. It is not its role to live christ, only when a christ bulb will light in them they’ll do so.