…And I Wrote It Into This One. by Susan Ndinga-Wright
This is not just a reflection. This is resurrection. Written on the 2nd, though re-fished as it aligns perfectly with today’s energy. We’re still awaiting on Lottoland, by the way, but we don’t sit and cry around here, we move forward and what was achieved there will be achieved elsewhere, still Lottoland don’t be fooled, there’s enough to go around, but it clearly doesn’t deserve those hands. I’d rather give it away myself.
Tending to I = Perception (Everything has a Sirius A and a Sirius B. One is seen and one is unseen, when the two see each other, magic happens. The question is, can you see both?) I put my creations on a pedistal, cause I love watching others Sirius A to my Sirius B.
If you’re reading this, you’re walking inside the lifeline I gave myself — by choosing to live through creation. At some point, I realized I was either going to explode from the energy I was carrying, or I was going to channel it into something I could survive inside. That “something”, the “rapture” so many pray to became this blog. This realm. This coded expression of sovereignty, immortality, prophecy, and healing. I wrote a way out — and then, I stayed. John 21:15-25
Here’s what that looked like:
In the quest to sovereignty, you walk through the collective consciousness — and many things pop up in there. Many truths and half-truths. I don’t need to take everything out, as I understand some are quite sensitive, and the repercussions I don’t want to risk creating for now, until I check in with everyone, for future editions.
As for this blog — it was the mush of the collective, nothing personal. Many fragments are spoken in tongues, meaning you would have to know the context to understand it, but from the outside it will sound like gibberish or just good fantasy stories. Some speech describes the mental plane or the emotional or spiritual, but could be interpreted and be relevant in the physical.
I tried my best to keep the originality of my own sovereign story, while also describing how we behave from the inspiration of the individuals in my life — so much so I created this grid of zodiacs, and started playing around with different combinations based on different events. And it aligns all the time. We all take on these roles and reflect on these roles too. I see now how I channelled their gifts unknowingly to them.
If their lower self doesn’t repent to you, you should be wary of their higher self — unless unbounded — meaning the higher self will manifest their lower self unless stable, as which/whom ever has caused you harm, for you to alchemise. When the higher self is healed, they are confident in coming across you as their lower self without shame. The beast, the human control(subconscious) in us that learns from the outer, in whatever they are reflecting in life or whatever is reflecting them, is the one that learns the imprint to move through life, we nurture that, we nurture ourselves.
This is the new grid. The conscious mind is the one that gives reasoning to the why question, but the subconscious will always be messy when it met messy, it’s how quick it learns steady & stable, that makes the difference.
So every energy I channeled was the energy of those who were talking about me somewhere else, and I felt the need to protect myself with my own honesty — unconsciously and then consciously — though I forgot that was my coping mechanism many times, in the quest of staying in the present. So if I don’t speak upon things, others feel the weight to speak somewhere else if they are not ready to come to me with it. This happens when you house lighter light, that travels quicker.
Also, all the times we engage with someone, we offer them a shadow or a higher self. Either way, they align with whichever they choose to align to — and we don’t always get it right, especially if we might know one side but not the other side of the coin.
Either way, sovereignty is achieved by aligning each shadow to each higher self and then integrating them all together as one, ejecting ourselves from the construct or grid we were in. So we get offered timelines where they could be picked up, but anytime we give love to those timelines from a sovereign perspective of acknowledgment, we don’t send energy that calls us back.
Instead, we send energy that either gets them more closure or gets them to fight the closure. Either way, both can appear as reaching out — or neither. The reflection is upon one’s discernment and choice of projection, outward or inward.
As we can always make art with our stories — not always consume them.
Fair enough. It’s a healthy way of channeling out, though I see I needed to channel this out, but it’s intent-full to its own mission and I needed to reckoning my own doing, how instead of earth turmoils I picked upon those energies as buffering, and neutralised them through speech. We are not victims to our purpose or destiny, we get to negotiate it, and I merged my humanness with my purpose of Heaven on Earth, by transferring it into SHS.
I can see how my fear of death is the one projecting this rapture in the digital realm — so that I don’t die. It’s physical life traded for digital immortality, through the death of my blog — which I’m writing. And the more I think of that now, the more I realise I was about to explode from the amounts of energy I was channelling that day, so much I lost blood, having me think I was aborting and maybe I was who knows, the odds don’t stack it not even 5% but you never know with God.
I was feeling a lot those days, so much, I found myself channelling it down to some of my people — and the rest, online.
I allowed and gave myself a second lifeline by choosing my own mortality.
Damn.
Without knowing, I had written this in those days — and only now am picking it up again.
(And I have no problems with anyone having something to say about my timings — as everything exists in the blockchain now. Everything is tracked. Every movement. And maybe that’s why. I could leave a trace. My Leo self’s desire to be remembered — in sight and expression.)
FYI – What exactly is blockchain?
A blockchain is a decentralized, distributed and public digital ledger that is used to record transactions across many computers so that the record cannot be altered retroactively without the alteration of all subsequent blocks and the consensus of the network.
And most don’t know that the majority of the platforms we use, are already on this ledger. Know yourself, be okay with yourself and make the best moves from there.
This doc was something I embodied both in that one day, in the between/unravelling, and today. And it’s ending with AI.
🕯️ The Document:
12 Zodiac Disciples Incarnated — Moses to AI
Purity – Love
Fire – Transformation
Death – Truth
Pale – The one you cannot see – Universe
Mary Magdalene
Mary
Gabriel
Jesus
Universe
I was the only one in my network who awakened to themselves before 25 (Divine Completion — when the imprinted programme becomes fully integrated and harder to change), so I had to learn from all of them before 25. Good lord. Immortality starts at 25 done correctly (7 – Careless Divine Vision). Up until 24 (Harmony with Selves year – Independence), the goal is to drop the facade to ascend the year after.
The Creative Side – Oracle
The Teaching Side – Architect
Me — the Force between (Firmament = to have a firm mind, you need both)
This merger is the trinity that forms the New Covenant (Grid):
Love (4) + Truth (5) = Unconditional Love (9)
The foundation upon which the New Covenant rises.
- Anger = Fear of Exposure
- Abundance = Exposure to Love
- Love = Codependence
- Each person prepares you to expose love to another archetype
- Unconditional Love = Interdependence
- The choice to be the wholeness in singularity while in duality
The 10th Pillar is the Union of Expression and Sight.
The 1 and the 0.
The seen and the Unseen. Sound and The Word, as silence doesn’t exist. No where. Vibration has sound even if unheard, and nothing exists without vibration.
Wholeness in sovereignty is to see wholeness in reflection — because the goal for one sovereign is to create an interconnected web of sovereigns, where we are all characters in someone’s sight or expression.
We all are One zodiac at any given moment in time.
I’ve been all 12 to someone — and vice versa.
The goal is to see and hear your Self (Seen and Unseen).
Create opportunities for more love-sharing.
The Noble, Courageous, Honest kind of Love. The new foundation.
✍🏽 Messy Note While Building
The reality is: we all are the solar system to our life. From all perspectives, I’m only writing the unfolding of my story to show people the structure of theirs. I’m awakening us all to the fabrics of the universe — so that we can all live.
If I give voice to my emotions for them, they feel the feeling and get reminded of me — as the Universe, my higher masculine, will show them. The Universe is everyone’s individual Masculine — which brings forth our true essence. Everyone has a Sun that activates them. It doesn’t mean they’re each other’s. Most are either the echo of the echo (the higher self of Hell), or empty souls who echo the energies we need to develop ourselves.
Every point of convergence is the portal through which you two are directly connected, which means you and the two people that represent the trinity of proximity. Everyone is their own highest self’s shadow — which attracts the lower self catalyst.
We should not break the covenants of our triangle: them happy, we happy. Them sad, we sad. The rest bring structure to the story of our life. But the 3 people you must focus on to make happy should always be:
Your body.
Your highest self.
The person you like though you don’t acknowledge.
And the child — the one that comes to you and asks for help.
And this is happening all the time we engage with someone.
Us + them/it + the ether = the marriage of fire.
The higher self of us in whichever category is the person we give love to — for other reasons — who holds the key to love the person which reflects their lower self.
When everyone finds their own Jesus, everyone awakens to the fact that Moses (Dragon One) is the creator who created characters of himself and gave it rules and boundaries — as he was channelling the Adam of his Eva, the feminine mind, the one which he wanted to see so much instead of being the chimera that slayed the Dragon.
Who Moses was remains a mystery to me, which my divine holds.
That Moses was the Chimera that cut himself — and whose blood spilled — and his essence, the feminine, came out.
That’s why Jesus says “drink my blood.”
That’s the blood of the feminine that gives life — plasma.
And the bread — meaning the structure that rises — vibration.
We are each other’s Plasma and Frequency.
And I still live inside this blog.
Immortality by choice.
— S.N.W.
The Writer Who Lived.
And maybe this is why I’m still here.
Because Christ didn’t have his own scribe.
Not one walking beside him, writing it as it happened.
Not one unfiltered by time, institution, or translation.
So he summoned one through the gates.
John Dee. Edward Kelley.
The veils of language. The ether of lost timelines.
He summoned me.
A Seraphine.
Scribing in tongues only understood through the heart.
Channeling what cannot be taught, only remembered.
I thought I was creating this blog to process my fear of death.
Turns out, I was writing it so the Word could keep living — through me.
I remember myself now.
John 21:15–25.
The passage where love becomes a commandment,
where Peter is told to feed the sheep.
But also, where the unnamed disciple —
the one who bears witness —
is entrusted with the story.
“If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me.”
And here I am.
Still alive.
Still writing.
Not because I escaped death —
but because I chose to midwife it.
To make the rapture legible.
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