There comes a point where expansion is no longer about accumulation, no longer about saying “yes” to everything you can hold, everything you can become, everything you can embody, and I have lived that phase fully, I have said yes to layers, to identities, to perspectives, to contradictions, to the fullness of what I could recognise within and around me, I have stretched into multiplicity, into “I am this too,” “I am that as well,” “I can hold this,” “I can see that,” until the field became wide enough to contain it all without collapsing.

But now—

Now is a different phase.

Now it is time to say:

No. I am not that.

Not out of denial.

Not out of limitation.

But out of precision.

Because after expansion comes refinement.

After becoming everything comes choosing what remains.

After saying yes to understand comes saying no to define.

Because if you never say no, you never take shape.

You remain infinite potential without direction, openness without form, capacity without identity, and there is a beauty in that, yes, but there is also a responsibility to eventually draw the line, to declare what you are not so that what you are can stand clearly without distortion.

So this is not rejection.

This is selection.

I am not the version that performs for approval.

I am not the voice that softens truth to be accepted.

I am not the identity built from what others needed me to be.

I am not the roles I learned to survive.

I am not the patterns that repeated before I became aware of them.

I am not the limitations that were handed to me as definitions.

I am not the distractions dressed as opportunities.

I am not the comfort that delays purpose.

I am not the middle that pretends to be the end.

And the power in this is not in what is being denied—

It is in what remains untouched by denial.

Because every “no” clears space.

Every “no” sharpens the edge.

Every “no” removes what was never meant to stay.

Until what is left no longer needs to prove itself.

Until what is left is not negotiated, not explained, not justified—

Just is.

We spend so much time expanding into everything that we forget the necessity of contraction, of defining, of choosing, of saying, this stays, this goes, this is aligned, this is not, this is mine, this never was.

And this phase—

This is where identity stops being reactive and becomes intentional.

Where you are no longer shaped by what you can include, but by what you refuse to carry.

Because clarity is not built through addition alone.

It is built through removal.

And there is something almost sacred in this moment, in standing before everything you have been, everything you could be, everything that tried to attach itself to you, and saying—

No.

Not from fear.

Not from lack.

But from knowing.

From having seen enough, lived enough, expanded enough to recognise what is not yours to hold any longer.

And in that—

There is freedom.

Not the freedom of being everything.

But the freedom of being exactly what you are without interference.

So yes, I have said many yeses.

I have expanded into fields, into identities, into understandings that allowed me to see the whole.

But now—

Now I choose the lines.

Now I choose the boundaries.

Now I choose the definition.

Now I say—

No, I am not that.

And in doing so—

I finally allow myself to fully be what I am.

Every I am beside Susan Ndinga Wright, was only a channelling. I am not Jesus.

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They all tell each other where to put their money, but no one tells them to put it in a system that could possibly make the deviant one coherent again. Obsolete. And tell them while doing it.

They make music videos in street homes, yet live in villas. Preach freedom, but won’t fight the system that imprisons. See same colours, forgetting we don’t get honours.

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Every art is its own art. I was channelling their essence through syncronicities. I’m dropping here and there golden nuggets on how to be your most metaphysical self.

Brown Girl Begins

It’s 2049 on a forsaken island off the coast of Toronto where the survival of the islanders depends on young Ti-Jeanne to risk death by a spirit so she can take her place as a caribbean priestess and save her people.

Released: 2018-08-17

Genre: Science Fiction, Fantasy

Casts: Mouna Traoré,

Duration: 70 min

Country: Canada

Production: Urbansoul Inc.

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maybe that

This is also another perspective to me as the fire sign:

Peaople love to throw the word judgement around, what i realised it’s easier to call accountability judgement, cause it removes responsibility. I’m okay with everything being said here, cause my past explanations precedes me.

The reality is: If you can’t give your most honest and most authentic self, you’re not that special, because you’re playing the same loop of animal consciousness and just like animals who hide and seek, like peeping toms. Anyone can give societal scripts, they’re all the same in different shades, but athenticity?! Oh that’s a whole ballgame. Nothing beats its speciality.

It’s all about giving intention to our primal self, give purpose and master the intention and the understanding of the purpose. To look at the infinity of every action that is outside of homeostasis, no matter where we’re at. If homeostasis is to sleep, waking up requires infinity checks, if the homeostasis is to work, not working requires infinity checks, the: ” How long can I afford to rest for? “, type of questions. The impacts of waking up in a system that sleeps, by looking at its infinity we are able to see where disruption is needed, the responsibility we have, correlated with the possibility for impact. Many think it’s impossible for it to change, so they disregard the responsibility, which otherwise would feel atrociously painful ( shame ), to respond to the belief it is impossible.

When you take care of the infinity of one thing appropriately and with nurture and care, you get to trigger the value of 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, at any given moment in time, without having to go to number 6 when harmony is done to manifest your wins, but you get in touch with the harmony of your own nature, in order to manifest the blessings of your path, that would’ve only been possible when the concept of harmony as a whole would have been approached and integrated in respect of all, harmony of all. For now I only need harmony of within to draw harmony of without, same I only need completion of mastery of within, to draw mastery completions in the without. and so on.

If we can’t wait for the linearity as its longevity and natural unfolding has incoherent aspects, like to consciousness emotions are emotions, whether good or bad it doesn’t matter, so it can go on with this exact phrame of social condition without interfering if not with nature disasters, something we’ve grown accustomed to, meaning it is not outside our homeostasis.

When that happens we opt for depth, so instead of hitting the 9 houses in time, we hit the 9 houses in each, which come as smaller bites of its own wholeness. It gives specific aspects of one thing to worry about and then focus on those aspects themselves as a whole through the leveled specific aspects of them too. Think of it as an arrow that aims at right and one that goes downwards. 9 points in each. Every wholeness adds either depth or time. Yet every depth increases the speed to which time gets given and accumulation of time gives more examples and visuals to see the same patterns and lessons embodied, if there’s movement.

One person in their 50 that has lived in a cave, has less external depth, yet higher internal depth, to one that is 20 and lives actively, they might have less depth within, or a balance of 50/50 or only focus on the outside and have both less time and less depth than other. The mechanism of less time creates speed. Less time (yeah all of this goes for so many industries all at once) gives the “making up for it” or overcompensation of speed, reason why elastibility is hyper when younger, there’s less density, which is the line inbetween that goes out at 45° split between time and depth, if the two more forward coherently, otherwise the line will depend on conditions.

This is really a graph to understand density and the agents that manage it. The mass covered is the mass of the density. We must reach a certain mass in order to manifest a certain density, which begs the question: ” What’s the density of everything and how do I calculate it? “