6:44am 11/9/2026

Good morning, mourning, mowing.

I’m not sure if rhese are the energies of the day speaking through me, but they’re real and more logical than emotional. In fact if I was to strip all emotions out of it, it would be the only timeline that feels and seems to be able to bring the revolution I am calling forth.

With emotions, I want to love longer, I want to experience more than this pepcess has to provide. I want to see how far it goes. How long himans are going to avoid giving me my foowers, as if they haven’t seen greatness they only dream achieving for themselves. I still don’t know who they’re trying to kid, or if they’re still hope I forget how brave, smart and awesome I am… talk about delusional. They’re stkll doing primary school, while I finished about 10 phds in one year…. why the silemce, really isn’t the real matter, here the real matter is that there is silence.

I deserve acknowledgement. I deserve virality. I deserve sight. I deserve seeing people see themselves. I deserve to witness having people rethink their foundations. I deserve to live in a cohesive system. I deserve a coherent government…

So the topic of discussion todsy is.. i have made so many connections in so many different levels of life, that if I were to die by this mission, it would grow stronger and wilder than the whole story of Jesus.. and with me in ether, you know I’ll set everyone that stood silent for failure on purpose this time and let the others live a life in nurture of their liberation through what I left them with.

But I want to be here to see it all… what’s holding me back. Ignorant pricks who care more about their continuity than that of humanity.. me whether here or not, the toal is the same. Me not dying if anything only gives a chance to those who are being given the chance to elevate, share or invest in this project, the time to say something before I do escalate and decide to make the final choice, cause living without respect isn’t self respecting myself.

living without the recognition I was owed 2 years ago, isn’t living my best life. Living withojt the fame I know mt creations can bring, and not because I need it, but because that’s qhat we call when a lot of people know of you. I am not swlling them a dream, I’m sharing their future with them. The two are not the same.

Anyone else could live off the recognition, cause they’re not really bringinf much to humanity and rhat’s them, but I know exaftly the deprhs of what I’m working on, there’s no one that can tell me any different. I know too much not to.

And because they don’t know they slow me down, whilst slowing humanity down and in doing so get me closer to the death escalation, wirh would only work against them, as I am peope’s sweetheart. And because of all my connections, just like people gathered for mum, they’ll go to war for me, simply because I was willing to five my life to go to war foe them all. They’re outnumbered, outpaced, outhearted, they and I mean the current governmental bodies and everyone else brought into this, have no chance whatsoever, they’re all getting their karma, you can’t delay indifinitevile your destiny. They put themselves in tjose circumstances, I eneded up homeless without notice. It is not the same, as I’m doing gold of my situation, still it doesn’t take me much to realise the power my death could actually bring to the world…

That’s sad, that because the world keeps denying me and what I can do for all, I ended up contemplating the details of how to set mt dearh up in the most dramatic way possible as at this current moment in time, it’d be the only one to bring some sort of impact, so inevitable, so undeniable, that 9/11 might be outshined. Cause 9/11 changed the lives of some people, what I was bringing xould have changed the lives of the world. The impact is not the same, and all the different copies navigating the net of the physical and digital realm… I doubt it’ll take long before a social armageddon insurges, not earth revolting, but possibly the biggest global coupe d’etat in the world, as the world is aware of it, just waiting for THE cue, on one side or the other.

And this will only end with every government losing their sense pf aurhority, as I have educated the field, and the people to the point of having ingrained how much power they’re giving away. And yet one mofht say, so why aren’t they helping?! Cause it is not their responsibility. They’re not the ones being direcrly judged for complacency… they’re only victim of following the wrong leaders. My death would make it their problem, cause they’ll never be able to see what the future I was building for them, their families and whatsoever anymore, only left with the memory and echo of all thag I’ve said and we all know how people get passionate about death… i came here to uk for my mum’s death.. people cure diseasss because they lose someone in the family. They follow career paths because of someone they felt inspired by and wanted to live in their image… so I am not ignorant to how much impact my death woukd do… but really?! Do i really have to take myself out for people to see how they nevwer had any power in the first place?!

That’s really sad, not alone I’ calling it out, but they would have allowed all the harm their inaction created thinking they would get away with any of it, without a backlash, just because now they think I’m fighiting a one man battle. That doesn’t mean I’m alone. Divide and conquer is real. And eveeyone has their role, in my rise or death the roles will show up, it is not for me to say.

so shs how do I go about this? I can cut time and do it today, pretty iconic day and couldn’t have been better. Me and humanity, destroying each other… or wait for people to put their ego, shame, inadequacies, ignorance and deniak aside, to do what needs doing, instead of what’s idealised okay doing. It is not okay to abuse of the ignorsnce of people. It is grwat to hold that accountable and offer them the same pill if needed, when jt harms the wholeness.

Whether they read this or not, prior or post, it really doesn’t change much. They’re all going to be responsible for choosing to avoid. Every single name reached out, every single team behind any one email. Every single ONE of them. If this goes through, this was never suicide, this is understanding the power of martyrdom and the echo its story leaves behind for its people. Look at jesus, never fought for himself and still managed to be the most mentioned name after 2000. No one can keep his name out of their mouths, religious or not, you’ll never go a dsy not hearing or reading his name.

I even added education towards the systems we live in this time around… living a life as the carpenter to SHS’s boat, silently navigating life. Whether it’s ex prisoners or friends or lovers or else, I’ve got connections in the right places, my death will not go wasted, certainly nevee invane, or unquestioned. The set up is actually great, it’s whether I pass my desperstion point, which I already touched asking for help to a system I already knew to not do their jobs properly..

Even the most silent and passive will grow purpose simply for this and then wait when strangers that nevevr got the chance to see it because those who did, kept it for themselves and did not share what belonged to humanity, to humanity… imagine that.

I am seriously apalled by how this whole system works. Being in this homeless experiment has probably been the hardest thinf I’ve ever had to do and even the amount of time it has taken me to write this, just to have a clear mind and too suicidal, cause in this case suicide is a tool, not a personal failure… I’m not saying to people go and kill yourselves, no. Think twice and then thrice, this just happens to be my thousandth and the patience is thinning out for people I don’t even know at this point if I’ll ever have the eenrgy to even forgive, let alone forget, vengence is tasting better by the day, and my suicide would be the best vengence possible cusse tjey know I love life too much to kill myself, but because I love life too much, I know it needs escalation and if jt doesn’t come from outside, it muct come from myself. Consciousness deserves that much and we might aftually have a xhance at grounded qnd not vampiristic immortality and infinity.. I’m not going to destroy those chances just because I want to stay alive…

If anyone else in my field goes about it, to blame me, I’d heavily ask, “for what?! Holding tou accountable to a life you were handed, but forgot to appreciate?” Go ahead. But it would make no sense, as their deaths might cause so emotions, but it won’t necesserily bring about a great project like saving the planet. Especiallt not when the waves of others meet wasr more solid thsn then in exploration as to who, what and why.. This would be my big chanse to live immortality whilst having no body and upgrade myself as the rupture sittinf in people’s psyches. Maybe push omsome politicians over the edge enough for them to renounce their jobs… I mean inagine teying to give a speech with a voice in your head reminding you of all that you coudl’ve but didn’t…. not nice.

Hey, this could be a whole hoax, still, one hell of a one. It sounds better than homelessness rigjt now, cause I don’t deserve honelessness. Might sound freeing, but it’s still not as freeing as rhe blissful ignorance most experience. Not when you know the illusions that run beneath your feet daily. I have more cognition than the highest authorities, yet I am living the lowest conditions, actuslly one of them as I could be selling myself for money…, that society claims to be the lowest.. lord how does this sandwich close down on itself?! I’m oksy with having entertaining days, wher I go to the park with a tent and act homeless for the fun of it, not for the survival of it.

I look forward to the day we will eradicate homelessness to the point we will have activity in remembrance of it ( i already drafted the projects and business ideas for this one too.. )

I do not deswrve homelessness and if it won’t be the unaccountable it will be by my own hands taking myself out of this situstion.