If you are new to this blog, there is something important you need to understand before moving any further.
There are three different characters speaking throughout this body of work.
Sometimes one speaks directly.
Sometimes one speaks through another.
Sometimes one explains another.
Sometimes they overlap.
And sometimes they deliberately contradict one another.
That is intentional.
Because this blog is not written from only one emotional, metaphysical, intellectual or creative state.
There is me, Susan Ndinga Wright.
There is SNW.
And there is Krysthal Tarfield.
They are connected.
They mirror one another.
They come from the same source.
But they are not the same embodiment.
And understanding that difference makes a huge difference when reading what comes next.
1. Susan Ndinga Wright
I am Susan Ndinga Wright, the writer.
I am the one organising the whole thing.
The one building the architecture.
The one connecting the ideas.
The one developing SHS.
The one studying governance.
The one bringing metaphysics into conversations that have traditionally been treated as if metaphysics has no place within law, jurisdiction, economics, politics or public systems.
I am the polyglot.
The multi-skilled individual.
The metaphysical expert.
The researcher.
The writer.
The creator.
The person developing the governance experiment.
And ultimately, outside of the creative work, I am the person actually attempting to build SHS — the governance of government.
So when I am speaking as Susan, I am speaking from my wholeness.
Not from my highest emotional state.
Not from my lowest emotional state.
From the whole.
That includes the intelligence, the contradictions, the experiences, the knowledge, the creativity, the practical reality, the metaphysical understanding, the ambition, the failures, the discoveries, the humour, the anger, the compassion and everything else that makes me me.
I am the mind behind the architecture.
But that does not mean I exist above reality.
Quite the opposite.
One of the most important things about my existence is the contrast between what is happening in my mind and what is happening underneath my feet.
I can have a mind that reaches into ideas of governance, metaphysics, economics, law, technology, consciousness and systems while simultaneously experiencing the reality of having no permanent physical house.
Those things do not cancel one another out.
Being highly intelligent does not automatically create shelter.
Being capable does not automatically create stability.
Being able to conceptualise systems beyond the ones currently operating does not magically exempt me from the conditions those systems impose.
My feet are still on the ground.
And currently, that ground does not come with a permanent house attached to it.
That is one reason I often use the word houseless.
Because I understand something that gets lost in the word “homeless.”
A physical house and a sense of home are not necessarily the same thing.
There are people who have shelter and still do not feel at home within themselves, their lives or the world around them.
There are people who sleep somewhere every night and still experience themselves as profoundly homeless.
And there are people like me who may not have a permanent physical shelter while being deeply at home within themselves, within life and within existence.
So I am not using houseless to describe a lack of home within myself.
I am using it to distinguish the absence of a permanent physical house from the presence of an actual sense of home.
That distinction matters.
Because physical circumstance does not determine the full scale of a human being.
2. SNW
Then there is SNW.
SNW is my metaphysical digital alter ego.
SNW is the nuisance.
The one who enters the conversation from a completely different place.
The one who is trying to force something into the discussion that conventional systems do not naturally want to accommodate:
metaphysical law.
SNW exists to challenge the assumption that only the physical, measurable and institutionally recognised dimensions of reality deserve legal, political or jurisdictional relevance.
SNW is the one trying to have metaphysical principles:
valued,
represented,
recognised,
and ultimately integrated into the jurisdictions and legislation that govern human beings.
And SNW is not particularly interested in making that comfortable.
Because why should a metaphysical individual automatically accept the limits of a human-made system simply because the system declared those limits?
Human beings created the systems.
Human beings created the jurisdictions.
Human beings created the laws.
Human beings created the institutions.
Human beings created the categories.
Human beings created the structures through which authority is currently recognised.
So why would someone whose understanding is rooted beyond those structures automatically surrender their perception to them?
That is where SNW becomes a nuisance.
And I have already written about this.
A metaphysical individual can become a nuisance precisely because they understand that the systems themselves are creations of human beings.
Therefore, they can study not only the rules of the system, but the underlying logic by which human beings created the system in the first place.
That creates a different kind of leverage.
Because when you understand the architecture beneath the architecture, you are no longer restricted to simply moving pieces around inside the existing structure.
You can question the structure itself.
You can identify its assumptions.
You can identify its loopholes.
You can identify its contradictions.
You can identify the places where the system believes it has authority simply because everyone has agreed to behave as though it does.
And that is where SNW lives.
SNW is deliberately uncomfortable.
SNW is angry at humanity for failing to fulfil what SNW perceives as its humanitarian responsibilities.
SNW is therefore an extreme.
And I want to be very clear about that.
SNW is also deliberately written as my lowest emotional-state embodiment.
That means SNW can express emotional states that I do not choose to live by.
Including extreme despair.
Including extreme anger.
Including suicidal language.
That does not mean that Susan Ndinga Wright is suicidal.
I am not.
I love life.
I have no desire to terminate my life simply because circumstances are difficult.
Quite the opposite.
I see what I am building as only the beginning of how extraordinary my life can become.
My present circumstances do not define the endpoint of my existence.
Being houseless does not make me the end of the chain.
It does not reduce the scale of my mind.
It does not determine the future.
It does not determine my worth.
And it certainly does not mean that I have somehow reached the end of what my life can become.
SNW exists partly because I wanted somewhere for the darkest extremes to exist without allowing those extremes to become my whole.
That distinction is important.
I can create a character that embodies the lowest place I can reach emotionally without declaring that character to be the totality of who I am.
Sometimes the lowest state needs somewhere to go.
Sometimes anger needs somewhere to speak.
Sometimes despair needs somewhere to be examined.
Sometimes the thoughts we do not want to live by still need to be understood.
And sometimes putting those states into a character allows them to be externalised, examined and transformed rather than silently buried.
That is part of what SNW is.
3. Krysthal Tarfield
Then there is Krysthal Tarfield.
Krysthal is different again.
Krysthal is the supernatural-powered, sci-fied, fictionalised version of my real life.
Think of the relationship between reality and a superhero origin story.
Except this is not simply a character invented from nowhere.
Krysthal is a fictionalised embodiment of my real life.
The circumstances are transformed.
The world becomes more cinematic.
Reality becomes science fiction.
The human becomes supernatural.
The ordinary becomes extraordinary.
And the things that already exist inside my mind become visible as literal abilities.
Krysthal has powers such as:
time travel.
telekinesis.
mind reading.
shape-shifting.
phasing through density.
And universal polyglot ability — the capacity to understand any language, whether she has formally studied it or not, simply through knowing.
That is part of what makes Krysthal so exciting to me.
Because I already experience aspects of my mind as functioning beyond what I regard as ordinary human limitations.
Krysthal turns that metaphor into literal reality.
She is the version of the story where those capacities become powers.
She is therefore my highest emotional-state embodiment.
The version that represents possibility.
Expansion.
Power.
Wonder.
Creation.
Mastery.
Freedom.
The version that I am inspired by.
The version that takes the things I already am and asks:
What if we turned the volume all the way up?
The Three Are Not Three Separate People
This is where it gets interesting.
They are three different embodiments.
But they all originate from me.
Susan is the wholeness.
SNW is the lowest emotional-state embodiment.
Krysthal Tarfield is the highest emotional-state embodiment.
So this is not:
three unrelated characters.
It is not:
three random fictional personalities.
And it is not:
three different people pretending to be one another.
It is more like three lenses through which different dimensions of the same source become visible.
Susan contains the whole.
SNW gives the lower extremes a voice.
Krysthal gives the higher extremes a form.
And sometimes they cross.
Sometimes One Speaks For Another
This is another reason the distinction matters.
Sometimes Susan speaks for SNW.
Sometimes Susan speaks for Krysthal.
Sometimes SNW speaks for Susan.
Sometimes Krysthal speaks for Susan.
Sometimes a post begins in one voice and moves into another.
Sometimes one character explains something that belongs to another character’s experience.
And sometimes one of them deliberately carries an idea further than the others would express it.
That is part of the design.
So if you encounter a post that seems radically different from another post, do not automatically assume that I have contradicted myself.
First ask:
Who is speaking?
Because the emotional state, purpose and perspective may be completely different.
The three characters are allowed to have different relationships with the same subject.
They are allowed to say different things.
They are allowed to reveal different dimensions.
And they are allowed to speak to one another.
Why Keep All Three?
Because one human being is not one emotional frequency.
We contain contradictions.
We contain extremes.
We contain potential.
We contain memory.
We contain imagination.
We contain anger.
We contain compassion.
We contain destruction.
We contain creation.
We contain the part that wants to burn the whole structure down.
And we contain the part that wants to build something better in its place.
Trying to force all of that into one polished personality would actually make the story less truthful.
So instead, I gave the different embodiments somewhere to exist.
Susan is the architect.
SNW is the metaphysical nuisance.
Krysthal is the supernatural possibility.
Susan is the one building SHS.
SNW is the one challenging the foundations of the systems humanity already accepts.
Krysthal is the one showing what the human story can become when imagination stops being treated as a boundary.
And This Is Why The Blog Can Move Between Reality And Fiction
The blog is not going to stay in one category.
Some entries are directly about my real experiences.
Some are governance.
Some are metaphysics.
Some are corporate and legal analysis.
Some are future projects.
Some are social commentary.
Some are written through SNW.
Some are written through Krysthal.
Some are fictionalised.
Some are speculative.
Some are literal.
Some are conceptual.
And sometimes they deliberately overlap.
That is because this entire project is exploring the relationship between:
what humanity is,
what humanity has built,
what humanity believes is possible,
and what humanity could build next.
Susan documents and builds it.
SNW challenges it.
Krysthal imagines what it can become.
The Mirror
Perhaps the simplest way to understand the three is this:
Susan Ndinga Wright is the human being living the reality.
SNW is the metaphysical consciousness challenging the reality of the systems.
Krysthal Tarfield is the fictionalised supernatural embodiment showing what that human reality could look like when possibility becomes literal.
One has feet on the ground.
One has the ability to look beyond the ground.
One has the ability to fly above it.
But they are still connected.
And perhaps that is the entire point.
Because the human being does not have to be reduced to only one dimension in order to be real.
I can be the person living the circumstance.
I can be the person analysing the circumstance.
I can be the person challenging the system producing the circumstance.
And I can simultaneously create the fictional version of myself that transcends the circumstance altogether.
Those are not mutually exclusive.
They are different expressions of the same existence.
So, When You Read This Blog…
When you encounter Susan, understand that you are hearing from the writer, architect, researcher, metaphysical expert and person building SHS in reality.
When you encounter SNW, understand that you may be hearing from the metaphysical nuisance — the extreme, angry, deeply challenging digital embodiment that exists to confront humanity and its systems, including through the darkest emotional territory.
When you encounter Krysthal Tarfield, understand that you are entering the fictionalised, supernatural, sci-fi embodiment of my real-life story — the version in which possibility becomes power.
And when you see them speaking through one another, understand that this is intentional too.
Because the boundaries between them are permeable.
They are distinct.
But they are not disconnected.
Susan is the whole.
SNW is the depth.
Krysthal is the height.
And together, they allow this blog to speak across the full spectrum of what I am exploring.
Reality.
Metaphysics.
Governance.
Emotion.
Law.
Technology.
Humanity.
Fiction.
Possibility.
And everything that exists between them.
Three embodiments.
One source.
One evolving body of work.
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Fantastic. And now we’re gonna write a post introducing the three different characters that are speaking throughout the whole blog, because it’s easy to get confused as to which version of me is speaking or interacting or engaging or saying specific things at any given moment in time. There’s three basically: there’s me, Susan Dingarai, the writer, the one that’s organizing the whole thing. There’s me alter ego, SNW, which is the metaphysical digital character, the one that’s trying to have metaphysical laws valued, represented, and integrated into the jurisdictions and the legislations that rule those jurisdictions. And then there’s Crystal Tarfield, which is the supernatural powered movie character in the shape of my real life, but sci-fied, or made fiction, cartoonized, quote unquote, like a Spider-Man type of story, like, or alter ego. But instead of being within the movie, it is my real life and Crystal Tarfield as the character that will be part of the movie that will come out at a later time. The mirrors and the differences between the three is that me, Susan Dingarai, the writer, I’m the multi-skilled, the polyglot, the one that has developed this whole project and the metaphysical expert, the one that’s going for the governance, the one that’s gonna be continuing outside of creative work, so, like, outside of the writing, in real life, I’m the one that’s creating SHS, the governance of government. I’m the mind behind all of it. The alter ego is the one that just is so non-caring about any human being, because it’s angry with every human being for not contributing to their humanitarian responsibilities, and at the same time, is the one that’s highly suicidal. I’m not personally suicidal because I love life, and I will never kill my life, or terminate it for no reason whatsoever, because this is only the beginning of how great my life is going to be, no matter what someone’s projections might say. Me being homeless doesn’t make me being at the end of the chain. If anything, I have a mind that surpasses the highest level of authority, the highest aristocrat, yet my feet are on the ground where the homeless circumstances are. But the two do not separate the other. Me being that smart still doesn’t take away from the fact that where my feet are is without a set permanent location called shelter or home— well, house, because I am my own home. That’s why I usually use the word houseless, because I recognize that many homeless don’t actually have a home, not in the sense of a physical home, but they don’t feel at home with themselves, or they don’t feel at home within life more than anything, because really and truly, majority of homeless actually do have a shelter. They do have a place to stay. It’s just the ways in which they feel that translates in the ways in which they go about life, because I’m the one that doesn’t have a shelter, but there’s a lot of those that I would still call homeless that do have a shelter. And I’m encountering them on a daily basis. I’m houseless, but I am very much so at home with myself and in life and in everything that is. And the alter ego is the extreme of my lowest emotions. So basically, the alter ego is my lowest vibrations, those that I don’t necessarily live by, but I chose to still create a character for and give space so that I could transmute them out of my practice. And then Crystal Tarfield is the highest version of myself, the one that I actually am inspired by, because she has superpowers, and I already have a mind that works as if it is a superpower of its own, and I would love to be able to also have the powers that I am giving to Crystal Tarfield. Things like time travel, telekinesis, mind reading, shape-shifting, phasing through density, universal polyglot, meaning understanding every individual language, regardless whether she studied it or not, just knowing, having just that knowing of being able to understand any language whatsoever. And the reason why I want to make sure that the three different emotional states and embodiments, because these three individuals, so obviously the me is my wholeness, the wholeness that I’m choosing to live by. The alter ego is the lowest emotional state embodiment, and Crystal Tarfield is the highest emotional state embodiment. They’re all three different embodiments, and it is important that all three do have their own space in the blog, but all three are different. So in the last—and the reason why I’m saying this and needing to put the difference between all three is because two posts ago, I wrote a post in the voice of the alter ego, which was heavily suicidal, which is also what inspired the post that we just wrote about social media and technologies that do have the data. They just have nothing inputted into it to actually do something about it. And it is important for newcomers that will come into the blog to be able to also spot which is which, and sometimes one speaks for the other as well within it, meaning sometimes my alter ego speaks for me, sometimes Crystal Tarfield speaks for me, sometimes I speak for Crystal Tarfield, sometimes I speak for the alter ego, the metaphysical character, the nuisance, because—and it’s something that I’ve already highlighted more towards the post that I put out last year, which is, like, probably, like, around 1,500 posts ago, the post called Why Metaphysics Belongs in Jurisdictions, where I said that I was going to be a nuisance because a metaphysical individual will always know how to bypass any human-made system simply because its knowledge and pool of creation and inspiration is completely rooted in reality, the reality of life, the reality of our existence, not the reality of the systems. And because the systems are creations of human beings, a metaphysical individual has a higher leverage because they also have the leverage of understanding how human beings even create those systems.
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