The more of other industries I see, the more I realise, it’s not the individuals, though they’re the ones I interacted with to some degree, I ask myself, how bad do we need evolution?

Cause I look at those on the upper hand, just watching an interview of Chris Brown and if I run with my plans, things like Grammys and whatnot, will lose relevancy, if not become redundant, though there’s people who are working hard to reach them.. and others that look at them as a confirmation of having reached specific achievements in their lives, careers, crafts.

And then I remind myself of what I had said, that my social bonds will suffer, even if I’m breaking the dream of one of my heros. Someone who I’ve actually listened to, throughout my life, someone who I look up to in regards to his multi-dimensionality, the things he’s able to do are just extraordinary, just to list a few, singer, rapper, dancer, creative artist(paint..), entrepreneur, producer, director, actor, fashion mogul and owner, and so many more hats:

Category	Highlights
Sales	140M records, 40M albums, 114M digital singles (U.S.)
Chart Achievements	Multiple Billboard records for entries, top-40s, longevity
RIAA Records	56+ gold singles, 20+ multi-platinum, 40+ platinum singles
Awards	2 Grammys, 28 total wins (IMDb), 8 BET wins
Albums & Tours	11 studio albums, global tours, Vegas residency
Cultural Impact	Sustained influence, fan appreciation for resilience and artistry

I mean that’s a lot of greatness. And yes we have created these to feed our egos, but how do we match that in soul achievements, that also bring added value to the whole consciousness?

I’m conflicted here. One one side I have all these plans for where we could go, and on the other side I see the cemetery of my impact across so many industries. So many lives, time and energies invested, and then here I come disrupting the whole things?!

This is not going to be easy whatsoever, not even because I’d genuinely be the most hated, but loved for the vision, but how do I make sure I keep loving this vision, that makes so many feel wrong for how they’ve been doing life?

How do I hold myself in alignment when everything will try to pull me away from it?! How do I bring forth Heaven on Earth, when Hell is so established?

Sure we can say just focus on the mindset and the rest will take care of itself, but no. It’s not enough because not everyone will have access or be fronted with the mental expansion in time with the forces that are bringing forth darker times.

I feel guilty, but my guilt cannot be bigger than my drive at any given moment in time. Impostor Syndrome I’ve dropped, that’s for sure. I don’t need that here, but the guilt of knowing how this work could impact all those who do live by the OWO, man.. that’s peak.

Cause imagine telling a kid who’s been investing their whole youth to build a career like Beyonce or else, to be able to feed, inspire and raise their collective, and mid-way I come removing money, awards and whatnot, as we recognise each other as equals. Do we need to compete? Well no, as sovereign you just are, you don’t seek competition, everyone gets and everyone is. Shit. It’s getting thicker by the day, but it’s worth it, because the same thing that might drive some to achieve bigger dreams, is the same that drives others to kill, cheat, control, or even just their parents to struggle.

If I look at the individuals I feel the empathy of their future and the emotions of their dreams, yes that might have been based on illusions of our already illusive experience and/or unconsciously self sabotaging in other areas of life, still tehri dreams are. But is one’s dream worth the whole collective’s detriments for eons, or crush people’s dreams for a little period, to give them a system that allows them to run their dreams forever, just with better founations?

When I look at the Macro, I see the reason why it’s all inevitable if we want a future in the first place and especially how needed it is. Grounding, phew.