People allow others to fall beyond reason, as that is the reflection of their lack of Alpha-ness, let alone Sigma-ness. They don’t know how to be the saviour so they don’t even try, even if they try and call themselves that, they don’t really know how, cause to be a saviour is to be a saviour of all, not of one bracket. That’s selective and culty.
Your subconscious will always be present for the show, no matter who you try and fool, so are you fooling others or yourself, by playing a character, by being the version of you who thinks has control, instead of swimming in the out-of-control? Food for Thought.
I once recorded and wrote about the culture of rape and the part of the victim — not to blame, but to understand what creates the situation on their side. Why one might find themselves in that position. But to truly grasp it, I had to understand the opposite force on all fronts — spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical — because rape doesn’t just happen in the physical realm. That’s only the most visual and graphic form. Too many allow their minds and emotions to be raped, and too many do exactly that to others — because we are not educated on what rape really is, and the different degrees of it.
I had once spoken about the two energies coming together — for simplicity’s sake, I’ll use the Plus as the disrupter and the Minus as the receiver. I now see this with more wisdom: what teaches the field the need or context that allows violation to happen. We think we have control over things, but really, we fake control. We try to control so many things because we don’t see the field that decides what manifests — the electromagnetic buffer that governs whether something benefits the longevity of our consciousness or not.
Our Consciousness has fallen in love with itself in a fractalised existence, now it’s working hard to hack the balance to sustain it. And everything that’s in alignment with that will be part of that, everything else will fall like autumn leaves, inevitably and uncontrollably to become fertiliser to the same grounds that birthed the tree or just thrown in a plastic bag in a dumpster somewhere.
Meaning: everything that happens, happens through the field — the electromagnetic fabric we live in. You can call it air, but that wouldn’t do justice to the waves that traverse matter and inform the interconnectedness of all things, delivering even an event as heavy as rape — a word that ultimately describes a feeling of violation in any form.
Rape should never be capped at the physical, because limiting it there excuses those who violate emotionally, mentally, and spiritually — while also diminishing the importance of those same layers, which are what lead to the physical event.
We live in a bypass culture.
A rape culture.
A violating culture.
So many record things that have no value, flooding the sea of consciousness with lack. We abuse each other by what we record — and I don’t just mean with cameras. Every creation born of processed or unprocessed thought is an act of imprinting energy into the field. Every time we share nonsense, we are abusing the space meant for expansion, taking up bandwidth that could’ve carried healing, clarity, or truth.
We don’t realise how much harm we cause by filling the air with noise. Someone might have needed a certain piece of information — but we cluttered their field, so the universe must reroute it in a harder way. I say this because I saw it in myself. How often I didn’t appreciate my feelings, how the insecurity born of an incoherent narrative would electrify my intuition. There was something true underneath, but my field hadn’t understood the underlying message it was trying to deliver.
We see things — but often wrongly, because of the debris we carry within.
But I digress. I wanted to speak on what brings the other side to rape — and it’s as simple as this: they don’t know themselves. They carry self-loathing and lack understanding of the larger game of life. They lack the courage or integrity to guide someone upward, so they pull them downward, by reflecting a downward spiral and allowing the downward spiral.
Earlier, I mentioned the Plus and Minus to describe the two forces of Yin and Yang, feminine and masculine — because I now want to talk about chivalry and gentle-being. People think it’s about gender or romance — but it’s actually a way of life. Wherever you see me using the words men or women, I’m talking about the female and masculine forces we all house, don’t get this twisted, this has nothing to do with gender.
A true chivalrous being doesn’t watch another spiral downward. They act — not transactionally, not for reward — but because it is in them.
Today, there are so many self-proclaimed “alpha males” and “alpha females” who think they’ve got it figured out. They dress the part, call themselves gentlemen and gentlewomen, but often the need to look like one betrays the lack of it within. They wear costumes, that I’m not going to lie look soooo gooood, I mean suits, wide lapels, pocket watches, double-breasted, oh my I live for it, but never confuse the suit over the original one called skin. They fake it — following codes written by other bypassers: wife-beaters, rapists, pedophiles, abusers — all wearing suits on Monday after washing the blood off their hands on Friday night.
Chivalry is being chivalrous with that which you gain nothing from. With that which cannot repay you. And yes, also with those of resonance — but never mistake resonance for righteousness. Even a monk in robes can be a serial killer to his/hers pals hiding in plain sight. Again Serial killers are not just of the physical, just like rape, we kill people’s dreams, people’s opportunities, people’s realities, by not delivering them the reality of theirs.
To every Professor like the one from King’s College who teaches Physics and Astronomy, who replied to me, I have no interest in this. He should be arrested for killing people’s expansion, cause if one who supposedly teaches expansion wants nothing to do with expansion, what do you think he’s doing to those who might bring that expansion in his classes.. I don’t need to give names out anymore, everyone knows themselves and I will hold them accountable through the use of meta-physical laws as they have no expressed a choice to be forgiven when I presented to them the opportunity. So they gave me the authority to choose for them and I will choose accountability for the sake of showing our society what happens when you become a leader with hunger for power, over the betterment of our wholeness. They had a choice and they allowed this to happen, now the field will choose if it’s good enough for its plans of longevity or not.
How someone looks means nothing these days. There is beauty that is rotten inside, and that which appears rotten to some that houses blooming gardens within.
Most people only know conditional kindness. They don’t understand unconditionality. From the homeless to the CEO, from the shopper to the spouse — people don’t know unconditional love, so they create boundaries, checklists, confinements. They cling to control because they don’t yet know how to swim in the field of chaos.
Unconditionality is the ability to go beyond bounds — to choose what to experience and what not to, while navigating space, while travelling to the future to bring forth unified solutions for all, not just the self, at any given moment in time. By default out of timed practice.
And when you’ve proven to be the only one advocating for consciousness in its wholeness, taking care of yourself is taking care of the whole.
Others might call me arrogant, cocky, condescending. But if I don’t play that role — if I don’t speak as boldly as I do — I’d be sitting here watching the world collapse, like many men watch their women collapse, and vice versa.
Kanye West had all the expression of this being, of sovereign being and our consciousness, yet he lacked people around him to ground the knowledge, of Yes We are Gods. Yes we all individuals have potential for greatness and he aced his, no he wasn’t psychotic, people twisted and created the narrative cause they didn’t know how to explain, within their own limited understanding s of life what the hell he was talking about. Sure I might not align with all, again he houses limitations of understanding, so he will house limitations in expression, but the general understanding is factual. And what he says about the system and those within it, we cannot argue it. I showed how corrupted our authorities are, no matter the country, no matter the role, the bank account. They are all cabals.
That’s how so many end up abused — by sitting and watching while doing nothing, we teach the universe how to treat us by what we allow to happen to others. So it thinks that’s what we like, unless addressed.
So I hope those held accountable in 2025 by the weight of our consciousness keep their eyes open — because the karma they’ve signed up for is immense. The wider I go, the heavier their karmic debt grows, while my dharma expands by the second, as I expand by the second.
We forget that we are puppets to a consciousness that created itself out of boredom — and fell so deeply in love with itself that it will do anything to protect its longevity. The same way false leaders and corporations try to in their own micros, except they lack the belief in infinity and immortality— even as they chase it. Psychotic delusional fools.
Delusion runs deep boy!!
So many watch someone drink themselves past recollection — and instead of helping, they exploit. Because their inner self doesn’t believe they’d receive love or attention from that person while sober.
So many mix pleasure with substances because they’ve forgotten how to feel pleasure without them.
But when you reach my level of understanding, life changes. Substances don’t touch my essence anymore. I experience the pleasure of pure interaction — with myself, with life, with the field and yes also all substances and whatnot.
I give unconditional love to everything we are, even the shadow. Yet what I give myself to is always a choice of resonance.
And I still share all of it — because I know even those reading this now, still stuck in their loops, will soon meet their mirrors.
Those who’ve taken and violated my creations — know that where you’ve stolen awareness, I’ve sown expansion. You may be unaware, but your own subconscious has bound you to the frequency you abused. You will feel the constraint until you evolve.
As for me, I continue my mission unbothered.
Only a narcissist would think I’m desperate for them.
To the false gentlemen and gentlewomen: if you can’t extend the same grace to those you can’t benefit from as you do to those you desire, then you are not chivalrous. You are transactional. Say it clearly: I activate my kindness only when I have something to gain, otherwise I am okay with abusing you, whoever you are.
And to those who are called fools for loving unconditionally in all directions before being showed people’s colours — good for you. We need more of you to awaken to the power of that love, and how it heals the field for everyone, not just the self, and how we can come together to build the new field that’s downloading itself into the minds of all.
An extortionate initiation, yes — but I made it simple, by simply writing it all down.
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