There’s no such thing as luck here. No one is lucky, everyone is either in alignment or not, and there’s no way the Universe would allow what isn’t in the best energetical mix, to be created. No way. Even all the “bad” we see, it ain’t because the cabals are lucky, nah, they are playing the NPC character of their roles, they think they have power, but really they’re just as much puppets as the rest of the world.

We create luck, but luck is really just one of the faces of alignment, as the other is misfortune. Either side of the coin, you get what you deserve, you get what you call for, you get what you build, you get what you invest in, you get what you work for, you get what you commit to, you get what you live for.

I used to be attracted by red flags, nigga not anymore! That bitch ain’t my bitch, I rather go for what elevates, expands and acknowledges. Time wasters don’t belong in my field, they just be creating excessive debris. Now this is for those or that which resonates to that frequency. A frequency isn’t a bounding binding, one can choose to move on/forth at any given moment in time. I did that and grew 10 years in 2. It’s that simple y’all. And the more debris you remove, the better you get, the clearer you get.

Before European colonization, words with a similar sound — “nigga,” “naga,” “negus,” “niger,” — existed in several African and Afro-Asiatic languages, many of which carried noble, divine, or kingly meanings.

1. “Negus” (ንጉሥ) — Amharic / Ge’ez (Ethiopia)
   • Meaning: King, ruler, emperor.
   • Example: Negus Nagast — “King of Kings,” a royal Ethiopian title used for centuries.
   • This is one of the strongest linguistic ancestors of the term, from an African context.
2. “Naga” — found in ancient languages (Sanskrit, Nubian, Egyptian)
   • Meaning: “Serpent” or “wise one” — often symbolically linked with divine wisdom and power.
   • In some Kemetic (ancient Egyptian) and Nubian interpretations, Naga or Negus were linked to Nubian rulers and spiritual elites.

Just yesterday I was like, I need to focus more on having emotions in the now, as I’m very mental and catch on the emotions, when really I just developed a high and speedy character consistency in transmuting and evolving outside of emotions who aren’t willing or meant to ground me. Meaning I felt the guilt for having one of my cats so far away from me, not fully knowing her situation, as I don’t have access to her, yet I advocated for her, reminded Shurgard that if they have no proof of even trying to give her food and seeing if that lowers or not, they cannot say she’s not there.

That’s like not showing up for your exams thinking you pass them. Nigga what is you on?! And in the instant I got reminded that the person that asked me about it was channelling the energy of the representative there that know they fucked up, probably raging about me, but hey that’s life when you try and out-smart me.. but still, it also reminded me that whatever you say you’ll get two complete different responses based on the person you say it to. Saying “As she’s consciousness just like me, and being a cat they already live in the in-between, I’ve been sending her my own vitality so that she can feel desired, wanted, cared for and remembered even from afar, while also getting energetical sustenance.

• The first might say: It doesn’t work like that, they actually need constant food, like tangible one, poor little thing.. and so on, I don’t want to tap into that too far. Basically they will see it as bypassing. Mea Culpa or your ignorance?
• The Second will say: Yes, she’ll be perfectly fine, you know cats, they’re strong, smart, resilient, got 7 lives kinda independence, and also she will definitely feel your energy coming through, cause just like me and you if our consciousness wants to stay in a vessel, it’ll find and do the most to stay, whereas if she was to pass or disappear it’s simply because she was looking for a different type of freedom.

To each to their own, yet one is reliant upon the understanding of our universe, grounded and discerning energy, the other is limited to the projection of their own belief of what they need for self and where they get gratification from. Meaning, if someone sees someone else and they project the “Poor thing” kind of approach, it’s simply because they get elated by thinking they’re in a position of authority or superiority. I know everyone has choices and I hold everyone accountable, will do for kids included to the standards of our consciousness, cause everyone is conscious. There’s no poor little thing here. You do you and be you, by owning up to you. All of you.

You are grounded when you know everyone made their choices, consciously or unconsciously, which is really just our consciousness making the choice for them, based on the energy that influenced their subconscious the most. And they all worked in my favour, they just think they defied me. Their ways of thinking deserve the “Poor little thing” not the person, as their thoughts were uncared for, so I adopted them and took good care of them myself.

SO I thought I was insensitive, nope. I go through emotions quickly, which resembles insensitivity, which is the negligence to account for the emotion. Both look the same, only one is processed. I sit with it for seconds and just like that am able to navigate them out of the tunnel. All emotions are energy in motion, if you catch them you can walk them out, but only if you allow it and only if it’s not meant to stay.

If they don’t move, it is because you don’t really want to, you are trying to confuse yourself, by trying to defy your real needs. I won’t budge on the fact I fell in love with some people that didn’t deserve it in the past, but I will honour the fact it was the facade of it, as only where it was real I can’t resist but to feel called in:

so to all those who are trying to run emotions out of their systems, that were never meant to be ran out, as they are yours and they live in you, with you… You can’t outrun yourself, just embrace it and build for self.

This is how I was able to get where I am, not luck, nor nothing else. I simply stopped defying what I kept being called to and embraced it all at a higher vibration. Life is worth living and I’m going to allow myself to embody all frequencies that pop up and for those that stick around within me, build gardens for, just like I did for the freedom of our consciousness, I now get to live out.

I’m writing this, cause I already caught on this energy in other forms and have witnessed by reflection of the ethers, what could come forth next.

Many see me, their grounded potential and call me manipulating, egotistic, cocky, peacocky… you get the gist, because it would hurt their ego, though it would benefit their souls to acknowledge that I am the embodiment of their potential. They’d rather call me as something they perceive to make me look or feel less than, when I’ve already done the back-end work and group them all in the right place. I know if someone uses those words they’re telling me “I genuinely love you, but I hate how much I see my lacks in your reflection. I allow myself to feel small, cause my pride is still too big to come forth and ask for your support in getting where you’re at.”

But hey, they shoot words as if they have weight. And it’s not that they don’t, they have weight based on the weight we give them. If someone insults me, I go “Thank you for the compliment”, simply because I know myself, I know they’re hating on the reflection of self, not me, so why take it personally?! Allow them to think they have power and diffuse that power with a “Thank you”. They hate that shit.

A quote I heard: “They see you as somebody very manipulative. They are very intimidated by you, because what they see in you is, potentially, a more refined version of their shadow self. “

They create illusions about who I actually am, cause it’s the only way their egos can live with the fact they’re not doing the necessary work to get ahead, not that it is a race, but they’e not even focusing on the right things in life or in terms of perception, so how can you expect them to rise, if they hold themselves back by their own lacks?! It’s like climbing Mount Everest with 3 luggages of bathing suits. I don’t know how one would accomplish that. But if one wants to feel good about themselves and win a Guinness World Record on it.. Go ahead. The inspiration is all yours, whether you give me credit or nah, I’ll forever know.

I dedicated myself and committed to this dream, as my life depended on it. You don’t get here for sport, you get here with purpose and commitment. Something not many have had a chance to see growing up. My parents might have not showed affection to each other, but boy they made the our family unit work, they showed me what commitment to a vision looked like, without trying too tough. I just had to learn how to fill in the gaps with showing affection and whatnot. They are my heroes and I get to be theirs for eons.

Now commitment looks like starting with commitment, not flaky shit, at least that’s me. Everywhere I brought my love I have committed to from the get go. In business it works like wonders, the reason why I quit working in April 2024 and gave myself to my own. I knew myself and after telling them in interviews that if my project was to start I’d leave them, I just didn’t bother. Why lie?! Same with relationships, I gave the chance to many and watched many fumble it, sorry girls but that’s just facts and I need to paint the picture for people to understand the depths of commitment. If someone doesn’t match it and isn’t willing to match it, they miss out, but don’t be blaming me for showing you what commitment looks like, until I revoked it.

The only woman who will gain all of my commitment will be one that gives commitment as a given and build the within the walls. One that makes it work. One that wants to make it work. One that looks me in the eyes and says “I might not get it right all the time, but I am willing to make it right overall.” This is commitment. It’s willingness to keep going with vulnerability, cause the flame will never die. At least my flame doesn’t. I understand plasma and our consciousness too much for it to. It burns even under water, through the thickest winds, tornadoes…. you get it.

Choose something or someone to commit to and stick to it, but make sure you’re also expanding, as our consciousness deserves it and the thing your committing to, yearns for it. And when the bounds hit, keep pushing and if their bounds stay, then phase through their walls, on your way out.

Never let distractions and sabotage hinder what you chose to commit to. Stick to it and fight for it. Through thick and thin, and if it doesn’t fight for you, check if it’s fear or no care.

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