Whatever you do, do not skip forward, read line for line, open the post, read it and come back to this one and continue, if you want the full picture on how this Jackpot was manifested, and how its alignment means more for humanity, then it does for me. Research words you don’t fully understand, do not take it lightly, your future depends on it, and I’m not just a creative writer, I am investing it all in a Supersession.
There’s going to be a lot of hit and misses, cliffhangers, turn-twists, psychological dissections, unexpected things… do not take it lightly, I know I sound repeatitive, it is because many have and completely missed the point until this day, I want to say making a fool of themselves, but I choose to say not investing their existence wisely.
Before yo continue check in with yourself, document as many thoughts, beliefs, characteristics, aspects of your life you know to be true and compare yourself at the end of this post. I even took urine before and after Jackpot to see the biological impact. So go crazy.
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I’m immortal to this timeline, for the weight of energy I cultivated. ( archetypal speech, if you haven’t read any of my other pieces )
” To the nurturer the house ” ya know?! – No one knows your house better than the one who builds it, be careful who you entrust with it. House here isn’t just a building, yet I will make sure to write down every name that will work on mine, it’s a way of thinking, appearing, expressing, being, a family, a government, a system, it’s everything as everything encases something else that encases something else, aaand you’re supposed to get the point,
” I go on and on and on and on
(My cypher keeps moving like a rolling stone)
Ooh, on and on and on and on
(God dammit I’mma sing my song) “
My soul cannot leave here, so I will be its consciousness. Have fun. lol
If I die, it’d be me and other sovereign souls in consciousness/ether/ghostland(the backend with me), the rest reincarnates straight away to clear karma. [I’m spitting out God’ words, as I rejected living under his cloak, like any other child would, does and has done. Not in spite of, but thanks to. We live, we learn, we teach by the grace of Source. ] It was never about him/she/they/it.., but about the reset of time.
The one, EFW or whatever blue symboled logo of billionaires that meet to decide society were trying to stop. It’s too late, boohoo, *not sponsored by Boohooman. *
If I’m here, it, my immortality, has happen already, as the embodiment is the last to live, yet the first to come to mind.
And if it doesn’t work out, I’ll be in consciousness, freedom to return at any time as the same or new. We’ll figure out how to preserve the first one or its full recipe.
I’m speaking here results, of conversations, negotiation actually, with consciousness, the same ones that lead me to this big day, not because of the win, but because of what it means, what it brings and what it leaves.
Metatron is only the frequency of God-Thought embodied by the manager of the timeline, Jesus, aka old Metatron.
I’m filling in momentarily until the next one, you’ll find what that means for you and society, given the extent to the work that’s been done in the aethers with the collective consciousness, yes I am speaking behind your backs with God, I have to report what I see, so don’t blame me, the same way you report me in mind to God, the difference is all in the clarity of relationship and communication. Have you built your relationship and acknoweldge it in everything? Because god is, and is in everything, the things you detest, repress, hate, delegate, deny, kill, burn, cut, disappoint, disapprove of,.. so how are you treating God? It sees you with and through everything, even the sock you throw on the floor. Do you ask for its forgiveness like you do when you cheat on someone? Recalibrate yourself, and sure you cannot avoid much, but where you can do so. With Consciousness. A cleared one. You might kill god in ants walking barefoot on grass, but your recharging a bigger density of god through your body, which has a bigger ripple effect on the wholeness. Reason why I was a pain in the ass to those who think govern us, cause they’re those ants, who needed reminding of their place and thst if they want the role so desperately, at least grow through it, take hits facefront, take accountability, responsibility, do it for wholeness in it, not for the wholeness of your financial pockets.. that’s sad.
And money CAN, not is, be the devil, yet its nurturer tells the story and I’ve just become it’s manager.
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What created this? A lot. There’s more than 1300 pages for a reason. The blog was constant Y, the constant X is me and the enrgies I carry, the things I priorities, like I can’t remember the last time I’ve taken a medicine, that wasn’t ashwagandha, honey, lemon, ginger, turmeric, echinacea, black walnut, cloves, garlic, marijuana, stretching, critical thinking LOL
i.e. when it comes to hard drugs, I go for mushrooms, lsd, ecstasy, weed, truffles in that order of coherence/relevance, yet not frequence(i.e. lsd happened 2 over 2 years), understanding the different relationships I have with all, the energy they bring into tango with me and the conversation that happens with myself through it.
I tried others, but they’re just not my thing. I don’t need either, I consciously experience them when adding the cherry to a cake.
I prioritise making my life my gym, than to close myself in a building with human-processed efforts in steel. Why not squat everytime you toilet, do some stretching every time you bend, drink wster like you depend on it, allow others to see less of me, from confidence, not self-consciousness.
The beauty of people’s reactions when they learn who you are or more parts of you is something priceless.
I know, these might seem like stupid examples that make the constant that is you.
I also know the reading of the text isn’t super fluid. For some reason I don’t care, there must be something to it. Maybe a crosswords of its own os taking place, beyond my conscious attention.
I will be experiencing the whole blog from post 1 to see my whole growth and I was just waiting for this jackpot, to pay my own time, as I will pay others to. My team, the people I’ll collaborate with, my family, my world, as part of the introduction and induction to working with me on this project called life. So why not get yourself ahead if that is part of your trajectory, whether we fit in your trajectory or you fit into ours, or you’re still figuring out your own, we’ll hold your hand through it, and trust if you don’t know what you want out of life, after going through the growing pains this blog delivers, I dunno bruh, we’ll have to speak, cause that, is something else..
I say so, because the topics of discussion aren’t your normal brunch chat, nor your dinner talk, nor work talk, it’s beyond what we already consider taboo and pushing the limits of what consciousness s about, while explaining it from inside its belly, whilst experiencing the process it uses for becomings. All documented. The future projects and how we see them affecting humanity, the past that lead to its thinking, the person I was growing through it at every given momment in time, the mistakes, the gafs, the pains man, the pains.. For this birth and all those that will follow.
To my whole past, my present, my future children, partners, if multiple, whether spread out through time or at once through space, you never know lol. I’ve been celibate since Feb, grant me some jokes, will ya? And plus like I explained, why there’s pathway-options to begin with.
But back to us…
Who do you want to be, what can you contribute with and what ecosystem can you allow yourself to experience?
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I gotta thank my cousin for ghosting City Splash you know… Being by myself there was one of the best experiences ever. I would’ve never gone down this one timeline if not. And also I love I gave him the chance to learn that, sometimes you don’t have to hide your stuff in order to make it. It is okay to be transparent, honest and open, wearing your heart on your sleeve. I made it and spoke about it in all directions, evil eye don’t work if you don’t believe it can work on you.
The mind does it all by itself. I burned the energy of that evil eye and used it as stepping stone to grow. Imagine… What would’ve been of me?!
The whole universe has been screaming at me with “cousins” or his name everywhere at work and somewhat it makes me think, all these years I was trying to join “his cool”, yet flop, cause I was always meant for mine. I never saw them as competition, but now looking back, I can see I maybe I was to them and really it came way before we were born, we were justvictim of our environmental circumstances… Maybe one day we’ll have this convo openly and honestly, I don’t know if they’d even dare to read this. Fuck, my south node! Of course… good lord.
Check this: All energies living sad glamourous lives.
We all watch reality, not many live reality. If any to its extent, as even those with superpowers could use them for better lives for all, but don’t.
I left Manchester in 2020, Jan. Look who showed up today..
Not sure why, but a memory just came to mind… My 18th birthday, we celebrate and all and at the end my dad brought all my guests back to my home, and gave me money to get the train while he went to work. I hated that journey, still faded, tired, excited to get to my friends with the house to ourselves… And now I see even more the blessing he was.
The destination matters more than the transport. Gesture of chivarly go beyond romance, others first as you will always close last. Shit I’m expecting long shifts at 4Honeth boy.. sauna, some meetings, float bath, more meetings, a sandwich or cassava leaf soup with rice… some creative manual work in one of the studios, more meetings after, lone work, gym, team catch ups, event happening in the gallery, one in the bar, and one on stage… boy what a hard life my life will be… why not steam room just before driving home?! Just to close it off with some red light therapy.
Multiple languages available at the end or use AI to translate.
My spirit guides peek in the future and snitch to me.
I go waay too fast for my team to be split early on, it’s like taking a child straight from her womb ( I see you docs ); I need live-in assistants for professional arrangements, one for the house/workspace and one for personal life. The 3 pillars. A force of 4.
- One answers to what: The Chosen Career
- One answers to the where: The Chosen Spaces
- One answers to the who: The Chosen One
Everything else is context and a child to these 3. The why, because I am. The when, when it’s time. They how, is in the picture.
The pretty large house, will house 4Honeth’s start and expand from there. The more we can bring to life, more bodies we have, the large the building. Already a couple in line based on size.
Souls cannot be broken, only expanded. Understand the reference and the lens they have towards life if they think a soul can be broken. Music.
Understand what people do based on their impact reach, not what they do that seems fair. If I have 10 and give you 6, it’s different from one that has 100 and gives you 6. The two are not the same and even black women are not the same, Some seek popularity and some nurture popularity because it’s the only way to undo the work of those who seek vanity. Not her fault, her environment did it all. What’s in our head matters more than anything.
I also will need a videographer, as the next phase will be video reality, someone that can capture the documentary of this inbetween, before the Tv series and movie is all put together. Ideally someone that can see energies before they come in the physical and interpret their own visions, to be ready to capture them in the physical.
We are helping the ADHDer that will put it together, by providing as much content as possible. Whoever thinks directors think like everyone else, you are in for a ride.
I already have 5 options for assistant, I’ll only consider outside of them upon rejection. A post will follow:
- Non-personal, but people’s representative: ?
- does not need to live in, as will speak for the people for the organisation, starting with advocating for the people in the organisation. They will start with taking care and advocating for 4 people and grow from there, as the organisation grows. Supports human relations/administration.
- Personal: ?
- Will take care of my personal appointments, aligning my field with the other representatives, coordinate travels, medical checks… taking care of my persona, the embodiment of Susan Ndinga Wright, the body that responds to the name. They will then have the chance to move into head of personal assistants of the organisation or like the others move sideways.
- Videographer: ?
- Follow us during the back-end of SHS and moments with the team, to capture moments that align with our future cinematographic projects, that will highlight the need for a coherent recalibration in humanity and the ways in which we intend to bring it about, our discoveries, the backend of who me Susan is, through which they can grow towards or sideways into other matters, when a crew is put together. Someone that can put the spiritual on camera, in matter.
- Spaces: ?
- Organise stock, building checkups, align staff per service, i.e. cleaners, gardeners, the building-caretakers. When first 4Honeth opened, same just for a bigger location, or move sideways into other roles, having witnessed its upbringing, it gives a wide amount of options of where to take it next, especially give the support is provided.
- Career: 10
- Will follow the development of a global conglomerate, its ongoings, my schedules, meetings, interviews, aligning with other representatives for admin services, eventually develop into specific areas of the business or head of career assistants for owners.
When the creative director for 4Honeth assumes their role, there will be space for them, they already know.
To all will be possible, for any specific studies that will support their roles, for them to be invested-in by me, no matter longevity of cooperation.
All have been considered based on experience, skilled showed, field proximity, desires expressed, personality, group affinity as it is a 5 bed, 3 baths, 4/5 toilets in tot, and more, yet still a building with walls/limits to respects.., career/dreams of choice, all without knowing they were confessing their dreams through me and got an answer to their prayers, there’s no one answer to anything. Just choice, which collapses the one.
I was open air recruiting.
I bring my wholeness everywhere I go and express my desires to gather the limits of the relationship, if it grows great if it doesn’t great, there’s growth in both. Still, only those who choose to get to know me, can get to know me in this world. To the rest I’ll forever be some illusion in their minds.
I love those who snitch, because you know they value truth and transparency more than loyalty. Snitches clear and do the hard work, masks depend on staying hidden. Tekashi 6ix9ine I approve that message, the only one I know very little about.
This is the water into wine. Same W-omb of creation, different degree. Unconscious into conscious. Nature to Nurture. God creation v human creation… We are going into factory mode: from creations of our systems, to creating better systems.
I better get myself some haitians in the group or similar specialism in nature and its insides n outs, shamans of life, they’re so good in knowing nature, they can make nature look magical.
It’s like female and male, because we created such strong and defined limits as to what it is to be either, we’re trying to defy the body, but the body doesn’t tell us who we are, it tells us what we came to elevate. Our body is a bridge to elevate everything that aligns with it, and guess what, we all are both men and woman, it just appears in different places. Women’s phallus is spiritual and I’ve got big dick energy for sure, not even a physical big dick can match this right now. To think I used to want a dick growing up for the perks it came with, not really the dick, but the context that gets assigned to having a dick. So I proved myself, I didn’t need one to match one and surpass it. Wow I can see I felt gender inferiority and made that my underlining trauma to alchemise.
To women! To the mums of children and systems.
Each has and houses both, and flip it in ethereal energy, men get spiritual elevation by being fed by the woman they choose to respect, so imagine a bunch of men that doesn’t respect women… I personally can see infinte ways that could go wrong, to the point of keeping just a couple alive for kids and more boys, it’s sad. Or even worst the woman follows the man. The blind following the blind. Nothing wrong with the blind, we will have this blog in braille, it’s the blind of perception that scares me. Well, not really scares, but it sounds good in saying, lol.
Men might be strong physically, but women are stronger mentally, that’s how they can run schemes on men and survival under their patriarchy.. so much more to say about this, but I will leave it here to avoid venturing into sensitive waters, that lose brackets from this though onward.
“Signore Gesù, fa’ che questa cenere… ci svegli dal torpore del peccato… Donaci di saper riconoscere il tuo passaggio e di vivere ogni istante con la certezza che tu cammini in mezzo a noi”
“Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we worthily lamenting our sins, and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of thee, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen”.
Tuesday afternoon I was just having my first counselling session for my egg donation process, and it matched the conversation I had with that first school psychologist I had mentioned throughout the odyssey that had me crying into wanting to be better for myself and be my own psychologist. It worked well and the conversation and support I received during 45 minutes of call, was just priceless. Here I am 11 years later, my second session with a mind expert and the outcomes are completely different.
This time around I was humble enough to take down the fact I could get a level 4-6 certification to do counselling myself, yet at this time, I’m not trying t o defy the industry, I am trying to elevate it as a whole, with all the others. At once. Yes it is possible. Watch me do it, like I said I was going to get here. Who understands the universe deeper here? You or me,so which projection will win,or simply be the last one to stand, or the Omega, or the … u understand.
I was able to see the response to my mind. Finally. A clear reflection, sure it wasn’t a whole life session, but that will only be the most insightful session one could ever see. I’ll find the best in the world and if they approve record my session, I want to see what they see in me. Or any offers?
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Life patterns are so precise it will attract in our lives people who match the high level of our past, yet with some newness, the ” my whole life I was looking for you effect”. Everyone we attract in a romantic way is, by gravitational design, exactly what we would’ve wanted but might have not gotten from the previous.
Rejections are recalibrations, if you play the part of diving in to the offer, ingratitude doesn’t do the job, it only lowers the bar oft he next offering, while going full in, either gets you to destination or in elevation. This is where work and love intercept on multiple levels, but we’ll see what their fate has in order, based on the pathway they choose, we’re gamifying it a little bit.
What sign was Jesus? At what age did I start this blog? Commonwealth is going to feel this one, oh trust! Their trust funds might be the only thing left after we’re done.
But the rejection or simply going separate ways equally is only an interaction. At every interaction we give ourselves the chance to renegotiate and remeet the new us. Time in a system where things have to move to look alive does something to you, so yeah anyone from the past too could be, if they match the energy of the new one. Fuck, doesn’t make it easy for my groupies.. Gosh I’m playing a character, let me be.. Of course I don’t see them as that, but there is that in all of us, because we are, or at least bare minimum, be fans of the people we love, to / for something.. find it in them if not, there is, you wouldn’t be in each others lives if not.
So who do I choose to enjoy life with, short term or long term, oh my… this is why I give them the realm of my personal life, soI can lead our organisational, I don’t have tolead all the time,I’ma switch like dat eheeheo.. now that I have all of this as well, showed to the world, is it my success that attracts them or my mind? Cause I can lose or reject success at any given moment, but not my mind. Could they do life with me without the success, like Whitney(with me) Houston said
If I lose my fame and fortune (really don’t matter)
And I’m homeless on the street (on the street oh Lord)
And I’m sleeping in Grand Central Station (okay)
It’s okay if you’re sleeping with meIf tomorrow is judgment day
And I’m standing on the front line
And the Lord asks me what I did with my life
I will say I spent it with you
I was given the names of some past lives, the intricasies of their dynamics, their mirrors, their relation to each other, how they fit into this, possible roles in this lifetime.
Like who I could ask sperm from as was Joseph in the past, who has the potential to nurture me as past Mary, mirroring their past lives, seeing the implications of them in this one, as she carried my Wright lineage back to me, and to her women, blackness and gorgeousness, have you seen me ahahahahahahhahahaahahahahahhaahhahahha beside intrusive jokes, it was the referance to J Hus ” Deeper than Rap “.
I see how the friend from Gambia I met in Malta connects..
Now… simply because of what I represent I get access to understanding more of our existence, but we all experience its mirror on a daily, we all have people who are our Jesus, some who are our God, some who are our Mary, some who are our Judas, if you look hard enough you start seeing all characters and how they move when no one pays attention.
In my own field, from where we all originally came from, Barbello, the embodiment of my heart was my life as Jesus, the embodiment of my purpose/existence was as John Dee, and the embodiment of my mind was as Einstein. Only reasons why I think, behave and pursue the way I do.
I have made many things, but my mistakes was always trusting the wrong people, not creating the hurt they claim they felt in their accountability. The red thread checks. No in this one. I trusted their non-trust-worthiness and used it as fuel. Check the checker. Mate. The real game of power happens outside the board. Getting the board win is the scheme. Look at how many billionaires play golf and allow who they want to win over to win, or prove who is the best to those they want to impress. And we think they like to keep fit… the deals happen in fit places, because they started feeling the weight of their mortality. Don’t you misunderstand rich people. Money is all they have as their source of power, or others with money if their collaborations lose money they lose resources.
Understand the game and play the game far before the game even starts, if you can, even further you can even make something of the game, even further back it could be thought. Align your life to it. I am the biggest heist humanity has ever seen and I’m still downloading my own plans.
The fun of doing it on the go. I’m just so full of myself, spirit clean, mind set, emotions grounded, that nothing can shake me. I traded people’s mistrust in who I am for the Jackpot. You can make money from people’s ignorance for good too you know.
Always be closing in life, is the only way. So long term it is, unless I choose to close in on short term for the moment. Fuck nothing can be boxed either.. ok.. we allow the outer world to dictate its timings, I’m good with either. To be the best offer. I mean.. spirit and existence(what done with spirit)? destiny(how we create) and fate(heavenly love)? Attraction and vision? Empire and Success? okay.. I answered myself.
I leave the interpreter hat, for seer. I’m only at cycle 2 in my current existence, Intention. Living my purpose is further down, this is the taste of it. And it tastes so fucking good.
Yet, I do feel for the casualties, whether in reputation or career, peace and tranquility, no matter which end they were on. I am sorry, I needed to be this me, for us. And it won’t be the last time my ways won’t be appreciated, yet will be beneficial.
Everyone had the chance to change their fate before this one moment in time though. Let’s be real. They didn’t. And to each their own, they know my pain I’ll learn more of theirs, we’ll see each other and move from there. We are all one, learning to be with the other.
Do you think if we bring more customers to Parcel Yard, King’s Cross Station, they’ll allow me to give them some business tips, being I worked the front-end and saw it all the way up to the backend, understanding the office realm and the incentives of decision making? Let see. They might love it or hate it, the hand is being offered here only. The people will get it there. The space deserve more, as it houses so much potential, just leadership that could use a hand.
I gift attraction to those around me. Just like you do, though the attraction comes from our spirits. The energies that are attracted to us, question whether to follow us or move everytime they meet someone new. Our ghosts, our pains, our wins, our angels, our support…
Number 5 life path ate. Now I can do whatever I want with my existence. I have accomplished what I was create for. I play within it now.
- Alpha : Lotto
- Delta : Set For Life
- Omega : Euromillions
Let it rain!
I’m just building compassion in advance to the technology through which I’ll stream my mind. Open to study.
My first line, will have to have read the whole blog by August 14th 2026. Make sure you buy a couple of journals to get through it, not technology. Trust that can be easily lost. Use pen and paper and train your brain again on all fronts. Nothing beats hadwriting for critical thinking and memory keeping. It trains it to a point your mind becomes the white canvas to infinity. Whiteness is amble field to colour on. Just like the sun does with burns.
Blackness is blackhole. Density which might take more to go through, but when it does, it gets so lighter.. with consciousness. mmm which shade do I pick? Ok, I might be gamifying too openly, but it is things to consider at this point of spirituality. I bring the knowledge I coin with me at all time.
Just like the fact I was always going to attract a partner who feels at home at 4Honeth, that’s my team or divine union.
I always wanted to be the person my heroes needed at their highest and lowest. Mary Magdalenes never had problems having options, the problem was always the option chosen. I’m confident I can fall back on my own past timeline, though I’m seeing if I’m chewing more than I can, or not. Many failed with me, so maybe I can get that one right.
Guess what?! Whitney Houston was also a Mary Magdalene, like all of us, we have lived in her realm to this day, one that manipulated for this one day. She’s good like that. The spirit of Yahweh. The architect to the oracle Barbello. I’m not deviating that much, I’ll just get to see the spirit they were beside Mary Magdalene. We all mirror each other for a reason, it’s a maze, isn’t it?! Amazed.
Yeah I’m not all here for sure. I love it, the more harmony I bring down the more I ground, so happy days are to come, where I can translate further into modern language. Just give me a second in God time.
.. giving love to what you don’t need is real life.
I want to see people win too, and where I might not be able to instantly make their dreams come true, I can hold their hand to it, while providing with the ever growing I have.
If I’m just one of your Mary Magdalenes, which do you prefer?
To some I brought attraction to the point the attention they got was not enough to make up for my absence.
Maybe Delta comes first..
First the embodiment of seeing how others react to the presence of this in my field, and then how I react with the Jackpot, to then how they react to the jackpot. For now I just know. 20:32 22nd April.
It’s okay to be public about losses and rejections, why not?! No I won’t share yours, don’t worry… yet. I bet no one wants me to build that machine, cause if this is what I can see in life, imagine what I’ve seen in people and discussed to myself… boy.
I want to see the natural sexual appeal of SHS and monitor its natural growth, without sending emails or else outside of posting here for a god-second.
We always must ask ourselves where our beliefs hurt or impede others.
Thank you D for the batón!
I moved longitudinally to London to reset and not have my past projected onto me. It worked. Now at this frequency of knowing self, to be recognised and projected of my present self, I need people to see my past. So the Jackpot was my flight altitudinally. To reset once more.
First time I moved I saw the wealth I brought with me from Italy, now I see the wealth I bring with me from God, as no other hueman has built a country in the standards of God.
I saw the poverty of UK first, and then I saw the poverty of the world, to then see the poverty of Italy. No I get to meet the poverty in the rich.
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He took his own cross already AI police, the content story checks:
There’s so much more on Diana speaking about different truths, do your research as always.
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What I’m testing with working at Parcel Yard, like it could’ve been at any other place, is the ability to hold the larger oicture no matter how small the task is. Is to have channelled tunnel focus. Channelled, because we remind ourselves of how everything we do filters to the collective consciousness, still noticing liabilities, negligence, lack of accountability, chaos, and all the good stuff about being a human in this current system.
The thread is untoucheable, and I’m fluid as water. No role can have me forget what I’m meant to do, so how come everyone else does? How’s it that we cannot hold focus on the larger picture, while focusingbon the small one? Is it focus issues, is it education, is it indoctrination..? I say it’s a choice. Lacking devotion and dedication to something beyond ourselves, that we cannot see direct return from.
Not all ROIs are easily and readily available to the eye.
You cannot know nor understand my superficiality if you don’t understand my depth.
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I see how special I am whether alone or with others.
I’m only answering what is right with me, as growing up i thought they were things to feel wrong about.
25th April 2026 – My body has regressed. Humbling situation. I got my real first hangover, it only took 2 nights out and this time around I learned I like to feel the hardness of specific things, not always experiencing them ya know, the moment I experience them I see where they fail to suffice, unless yes they do back themselves. Age 26. Boy I held tight…
– Alpha and Omega in the reading order of things.. the start of that paragraph is the ending, I didn’t just lose my virginity, that was New Year 2020, she was happily surprised. Older as I’ve only been with older people with the intention to date. Maybe I’ll be happily surprised by same age or younger, who knows. –
…And I think. He needed someone that was dissociated in order to fulfill his intention to climax, without feeling the responsibility to please, and it was too late by the time it all stopped. Like the majority of people. Someone that fakes yet stakes it, someone that would have given him the gift of pleasure. You know what they say, ” You don’t have to gift back because you were gifted “. The porn pal to suffice fantasies.
My thoughts are real estate to SHS, if you don’t want specific reflections you’ll have to ” pay me for my thoughts “, and it won’t be a penny. You can judge the depth of my reflections, pondering, perspectives, understandings, wisdom, investigations, observations. From there start to imagine what could be seen of yourself and buy the rights to your reflections. As I belong to SHS you’ll have to pay them, as they’ll assess if you’re paying to have something covered up, because someone’s in harm, it’s information the world needs to hear/see/touch.
I think having protected sex with men gifts me worlds when unsatisfied, their mirror when pleasured, and women an ego boost at point of connection, I just love them that much cause I love myself that much. They say ” If you can’t love yourself, how the heav are you going to love somebody else? “, as willing to go above and beyond for their pleasure. Know where you’re investing lol
There’s all the right components for ecstasy, yet no movement by me, meaning it’s coming from the outside in.
You can rent the first release of a reflection, with a subscription plan I’ll create in the future when ready, to read or hear it first before humanity for free. Purely curiosity and anticipation, while experiencing what will be before everyone else in the state of knowing, it’s quite fun I held it throughout this whole blog, all 1333 publications as I knew I was going to win eventually.
The battle of the Titans: Physical or digital world? Which will bring me joy?
This is a consciousness exorcism.
The red light is on. Camera, action!
What’s your fantasy of SHS, 4Honeth, yourself, humanity, society, me?
… You know, you ignored the knowledge before and you ignored me saying that only money was going to get your attention, and yet here you are. So what now? Are you going to account to that?! Let’s be honest…probably not.
And to all thoe who think their being is in me, because I say it, linking to the ” You gotta be it to know it ” type of thing. No. I am observant of others, but I’m not doing this for money, I’m doing this for freedom which has nothing to do with money, as if I get the chance to eradicate it, I will take it. Many want money, because it gives them the association with power, status, finance coping mechanisms, affordability and all that stuff we made up. We are not the same. My tip of the icebergs lead to others bottoms, it’s easy to see everything I’m not, because it’s so loud, constantly, daily, neurotically. People are so not doing okay and it’s easy to spot, when you’re okay with yourself. Really in harmony with self and all, yet reflecting to them the disharmony of self. Meaning, I cannot be in full harmony with you if you’re not in full harmony with yourself, because I can be authentic, but where my authenticity gets misunderstood without curiosity, it gets invested elsewhere, as not required.
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coordinates hint:
From now some of the digital to the digital and physical to the physical. Only that which is coherent, that is. Digital work is fossil fuel to the physical.
2 May 2026 00:58am, and it was now I went through the research, the very certificate of psychology lead with.. the development stages of Piaget, which also cross reference with other more, and yet we are in denial of self. I must admit, this information has made me realise,
I will not be dating any mental or emotional underaged. I love you all and would love to take care of you while sharing me, but I just can’t do it just yet. Finish the blog, let’s have a chat and then see.
You’ll find a post about what I’m saying, brace yourself, that will probably be one of the hardest to read.
The one you do not want to miss if you made it to this end. You’ve withstood a lot, so give yourself a pat, no matter what feeling you towards what you’re reading, me, you, others, whatever. I appreciate you for your resilience. I write because it’s too heavy for people to hear, so for you to willingly read so far. You unlocked this in me.
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you described the word but you haven’t said the word. you’re allowing someone that might be asking about something to say teh word for themselves to ask if it is what you might be impliyng to, and if someone does n’t have the word for it ten, they cannot confirm it is exactly that.
3 wins of Jackpot will appear from tomorrow Saturday 2nd May 2026, 20:00pm
Understand your players and what they want.
I bet you didn’t have good dreams last night… didn’t I ..?
Now is when I start to appreciate men. Sorry for the slap.
These are the things that expand my compassion. We are all somewhat suffering, sure I might suffer different from you, but that doesn’t mean “WE” are not suffering and for that equally deserve better plans and ways to be better for each other.
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2nd May 11:38
Tonight’s Lotto tells me if I was only the next bible writer or the awful lot all at once. Yesterday loss brought us through the dark night of the soul gate with the pedophile thing and all, it just means hard core recognining in the infinite ocean of what consciousness is, and we must accept it all somehow to achieve God like state, age, body, mind and emotions on pair. The immortal, cause every organ(from those I listed just now), when in homeostasis with other homeostasis it slows down the effects of aging one of or more, as there’s less discordance. It’s like 4 people holding one cord laterally and they all run at different paces, speed, and what not. Absolute Chaos. To my reckoning.
Or just that I’m just a teacher to my title ” Meta-physical Specialist ” who hasn’t achieved the accomplishment to give tangible examples. Either way, it was one hell of a way.
Whether I’m only a nurturer ( # 4 ) or also the Truth in vision ( 5th month in 2nd day ) the yang to the yin, we’ll see too. Where everything comes together in a 3.9 hole.
.. The Jackpot was the mental block I needed to unblock for more spirit to pass through.
As for zodiac travelling, it took me 26 years to ascend Cancer because of multiple mental blocks attached to Nurturing, now we’re navigating the lightness of Gemini catching it from the back as we land in Taurus past Jackpot initiating the action of Aries, to live out the whimsical-ness of Pisces with the rebelliousness of Aquarius, all while Leo entertains and performs the analyticality of Virgo, balances the scales of Libra, holds Scorpios hands through the gates of hell, meeting the freedom of Sagittarius, all meeting in Capricorn. Imagine this anime style..uuuuh yeah! This is some Ultra Instinct Super Sayian type of effects.
We take the mirror of my parents cushion of divine love. 1s and 3rd of Jan is their birthdays, and I always say ” the 2nd of Jan is a great party “. Let it be so. Truth as the truth it is. Capricorn is the vision maker, Sagittarius is the first actual zodiac. It all started with freedom, reason why freedom is what we chase, not action. It was all cold when things started, tehy’re warm now because there’s a sun. There’s light. The beginning of the year does start in darkness, cause everythig started in darkness. Look at plants, they germoliate in darkness and sprout into the light to bloom at its peak. Let’s not undo nature for those who want to believe Spring is the first month or that January is. It’s December. Like the week that starts with the Holy day – Sunday. If it checks throughout it checks throughout and I’ve accomplished my role’s certification, your welcome for having brought you with me.
We start growing in the darkness of a placenta. We are blind in our first instincts. We do not speak. We do not walk. We do not sing. We do not count. We do not work. We do no go to school. We do not come out with clothes. We do not know the Sun, but we were alive far before the light shun on our faces, weren’t we, or the machines are lying when we heart a heartbeat?! Which is which? Damn I’m good at this. I want to say I should a prize for this, but I don’t think it’s been invented just yet…
The mirror that lead here was that the leo sign, which I am is the manifestation of air the visual of air, so its mirror capricorn is the vision worker. The carpenters. the wrights, the ndingas, the builders, the architects, the all mean the same, potential for new. I was conceived somewhere in the last 2 weeks of December. I missed one didn’t I?! 9 months, 5 zodiac signs in between? To meet into one, that’s 11. I’m bugging, wait a minute ahahha the theory stands, spring and jan aren’t the beginning, wait inverno is the first one and autumn is the death, the last. That’s the tip of the iceberg, ow I have to go and look up which zodiac I forgot, they hold some power of some kind…
Nope I calculated the inbetweens wrong, that’s by design. Alpha and Omega count as ” High Definition “, the rest is the same cycle repeating, you can use another 4 to do the same and that being the first in your life, the 4 horsemen to your life. This is my foundation throughou time in my life, the rest has been expansion.
I’m just unlocking the date with fate treasure hunt I layed out for myself throughout my existence leading to this moment. Makes sense the Sun resets on the 25th. That should be the beginning of the year, why do we fight against it and postpone it of a whole week?!
Shoot still Capricorn, freedom is in death and life, it’s the final bridge sorry. Makes sense. At SHS the year starts on the 27th of December. Capricorn is the first zodiac sign. Everything follows the structured thread of life of starting in darkness, fluidity, untaintedness and start colouring further. Uniforms only up until 9 years old, we focus their attention on internal and unleash their true self after it externally both fashion wise and expressions of their kind. So much more can come from this, we’re not going there now. Let me keep some to myself.
I’m curious to see how others immaturity comes out, I’ve seen already a lot of them throughout this 2025, hopefully they do not repeat themselves..
We were mentally older before, the age of the great thinkers.. maybe not best emotionally, but at least mentally. We stayed younger longer and aged faster out of old-age. Meaning quicker old death, longer youthful life. Call it crooked. People these days want the longer without fixing what will actually get them to experience the opportunities advancements have created. You know you have to be alive to be able to experience a healthy 100th birthday right? No matter how much stats say, WWIII won’t be picky.
Narcissism is only lack of grounded masculine energy. How do you know if you are a narcissist? Is there anyone you don’t want to appear bad in front of? Yeah, you didn’t want to appear bad in front of mama or she used language that assumed you could make her look bad.
Viceversa you lack dedication, stability and groundedness all together, that was dad or lackthereof.
I’ve mentioned the part where I see your pain too, but it’s important we discuss facts of life, even in the awareness of the pain it might hold, right?
I’m going to Switzerland after this and live you to your own devices for a while. I have the money now.
Adulthood has been the greatest facade ever. Take off your masks and confront yourself. It ain’t looking that good.
My expressions are childish, cause only children in mind have been acting as adults. We don’t know how adults express and we certainly need to look at the professional language, what goes when the people in front of you don’t have your IQ and EQ? Can geniuses reach out, we need to hack this one..lol just playing, but love to have convos with you wherever you are.
Does knowledge make adulthood, or cognition? Does knowledge age you? Well ask Wine… Or Formaggio. Are geniuses ahead of the game? What makes a genius, extreme ability to learn, and apply?
I have already felt the pain of the collective consciousness giving me this win. I’m good.
To the world it’s just another day. For me it’s the day I meant saying ” I will make sure to make not contributing to Consciousness a criminal charge and if rehabilitation is refused, punish-able with death. If you won’t take care of the living you need to be with the dead.
We’re both witnessing me getting the hang of getting timing right and twist it with the patterns. Can you see it?
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